Driving record
Thursday, February 28, 2008
♥
-2:18 PM
FOUNDER'S DAY!
glorious day ended with just perfect class-bonding with just the shouting alone.
its absolutely mad-ness the whole class just turn out to be like that because its the last time we'll doing this.LAST FOUNDERS DAY.YES
its absolutely mad-ness the whole class just turn out to be like that because its the last time we'll doing this.LAST FOUNDERS DAY.YES
thinking back its already been 11 years since im schooling in this mundane acs.everyone else is like somewhere else but im still here.
maybe that should give me more motivation to do well.not to get out of school but to go somewhere else.
morbid thoughts is always poping out nowadays.
ANYWAY.im somehow drag along to cathay to catch a movie and dont luff at me because im using the free com at cathay to blog=)
morbid thoughts is always poping out nowadays.
ANYWAY.im somehow drag along to cathay to catch a movie and dont luff at me because im using the free com at cathay to blog=)
im trying my very best to type really really fast because its only 15 mins and its so frigging irritating.
okay wei hoe and jonny is like next to me and they demanded a space here so yes.
casey is my angel.
jia is my angel.
weihoe is my motherfucking dick.but i still love him anyway.
nick ho is my sis!i love my sis.
hansel is my computer man and my shopping partner.!
anyway there is still alot people here and i realised im wasting time!.
today is fun fun fun gotta go find a better com later to really blog about today!.
meet the spartans is like starting soon?i gtg.
im sorry to make you feel that i dont trust you.
because deep down inside,i know that i trust you more than you think i do.
im just sorry for being me.
p.s i love you.
casey is my angel.
jia is my angel.
weihoe is my motherfucking dick.but i still love him anyway.
nick ho is my sis!i love my sis.
hansel is my computer man and my shopping partner.!
anyway there is still alot people here and i realised im wasting time!.
today is fun fun fun gotta go find a better com later to really blog about today!.
meet the spartans is like starting soon?i gtg.
im sorry to make you feel that i dont trust you.
because deep down inside,i know that i trust you more than you think i do.
im just sorry for being me.
p.s i love you.
XOXO
Sad/happy/angry/me?
Sad/happy/angry/me?
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
♥
-6:01 PM
THINKING...
Maybe the partial(99.99%) reason to this dead blog is because i went in?and i cant post so YES.YESYES.I AM BACK!
Wow its been a long journey seriously.i thought i would only go for a month?but apparently this trip to chalet at jurong cost me dearly..
Just to play along with this summer obsession,hello people.i am jj and i just came back from boys home=)okay not really just came out but i was just soo busy with my life soo i didnt post!
The days i spend inside,made me realised how lucky i was just being able to breath 'free' air.Trust me you have no idea how its like having to breath 24/159 of lock up air.
Anyway,i'm now at jia's after a day longer than hellx1000
argh!jia and casey was just being sweeties by accompanying me the whole day after SOMETHING which happened yesterday.sobs sobs sobs.
Started the day with the utmost grief accompained by super wearyness.went to buy a xxxxxxL mocha and sat in the middle of the school waiting for the zombie inside of me to consume me.but luckily,casey came down to school early and i sooooooo neeeded to talk soooo yay!
ok maybe i didnt handle this so well like i think i will.
Yup yup yup yup no need to just hear the rumours.you're hearing from me.Yes i broke up with lydia.why?i dunno?was just trying to fish out something from her mouth after feeling something weird over the week and i just realised maybe the pest didnt just go away after a swing.dont ask me why the helll i did that grace because i dont know why either.yes my god i still love her like crazy but i just feel that it wont be so perfect if i didnt want it to be.
Its all because i feel that the passion for each other is lost somewhere in between this seven months and i dread making it feels like meeting you is actually a drag.i was actually talking to someone about this issue when the exact same thing happened in the conversation with her.we didnt quarrel and she just left after departing from my house i have no idea what struck me but i just felt that i love her alot and ill do anything to rectify the problem even if it means to just break up or something.i really want the best for her.whether if its with me or w/o but i only wanna just make her happy or something.i realised i can no longer make her happy like the way i can before.At this very place,i was leaving this place after a day of excitement and suddenly i just felt like calling her up and she was like sooooo nice.she accompaned me in the conversation throughout the journey.actually it was mentioned to me that its really childish to think that everything is gonna be the same after 6 months but i blanctantly pushed that thought away thinking "naaaa everything is just gonna be fine".somehow the love we had for 3 days have caused me to fucked everything else including my impartial judgenment into conning myself to believe that everything is gonna be okay.
You have no idea how much this change is affecting me because alot of things have changed.my frens,my group the change i am anticipating is too much for me to handle and somehow you're included.somethings never ever change,things like me and my mouth and my super rowdy charactor.i think i went to mummfied my ablity to be sweet and i took it out the moment i came out.but i think i lost touch or something but i still managed to make some other's heart melt.
But than i really dunno how to solve the problem that is between us because i'm really in love.but i have no idea how am i gonna turn the problem that we have into something that will make us closer.i really dread the feeling of this helplessness and the only way for us now is maybe we should just stop and give ourselves some time to think about what is it that we really want.
Well..actually what i needed is actually just an opportunity to give you some time to think about me,us and the days of our life that is yet to come.
i know very well what i want.
All i want is you and just you.
nothing can be more expensive than just a moment spent with you knowing that you love me like the way i do.
Its been a long time.really tooo long since i was engaged in something that is actually within my grasp.Before that was just an episode of absoutely fetish for a fairy tale and nothing more than that.what i wanted was actually something which is weirdly perfectly and the feeling of just being in love in a fairy tale.but unfortuantely,i kinda of gave up trying to pursue something so beautiful.what i need is someone who is actually going on a journey with me trying to get someone who i can trust,talk and enjoy every second of it.i realised how foolish i was when i finally found it.Yes it was you.its just you.plain white tee's.
i needed to know whether we will just freeze time and just lay dead there in each other's arm like i know you will.actually to be realistic,i know you would.And since i feel that way,all i wanted to do was to just cherish you,not making myself have any chance to jepadise this love.YUP.
i was infatuated with just your pure and noisy company and it sooo happen that someting that screwed got to happen and i've got to go.
On the day when i came out,(which so happened to be your birthday)i was confused/worried/scared to even call you worrying that our story will just end on that day.baby,p.s i love you.
But the scenario which i dread so much was extended to three weeks into my discharge day and i really enjoyed it.i seriously did.i dunno if you felt it there but whatever i was doing for you,i was doing it with my heart with love almost imprinted on every single detail and i would almost killed someone if something were just to screw up.This feeling,how i like..
Even though it have pretty much out-lived,i enjoyed it.every single second of it.we were like a newly wed which blush with the sight of love on each other's face.please,i would pay a thousand blessing just for a tiny sprinkle or that.
Anyway,even though how much i regreted this decision that i made,i found something which i lost somewhere along this seven months.
This wonderful urge to just wanna know more about you!
i discovered this feeling inside of the whole lot of sadness i was feeling the whole day!
hey hey hey im really happy.really really happy now.i finally found this feeling than we've lost.
this absoute sadness is what is really missing in me.
You live to regret only after you've lost it
whatever it is,even if its too late or whatever.im just really really really happy that i found it again.
The urge of just being in love with you again.
signing off because greg and aaron is COMING!
cyaz people.
<3 p.s i love you.
This little tiny part of me just wanna tell you
I MISS YOU LYDIA.
things changes but something just cant.
i love you like i never did before.
P.s i love you.
P.s i love you.
P.s i love you.
P.s i love you.
what a sad day!sob sob sob.in days to come i have to live with this sadness.
bite me.
Thinking back,the fattest elephant in india.
nothing compare to that now.
YOU
Maybe the partial(99.99%) reason to this dead blog is because i went in?and i cant post so YES.YESYES.I AM BACK!
Wow its been a long journey seriously.i thought i would only go for a month?but apparently this trip to chalet at jurong cost me dearly..
Just to play along with this summer obsession,hello people.i am jj and i just came back from boys home=)okay not really just came out but i was just soo busy with my life soo i didnt post!
The days i spend inside,made me realised how lucky i was just being able to breath 'free' air.Trust me you have no idea how its like having to breath 24/159 of lock up air.
Anyway,i'm now at jia's after a day longer than hellx1000
argh!jia and casey was just being sweeties by accompanying me the whole day after SOMETHING which happened yesterday.sobs sobs sobs.
Started the day with the utmost grief accompained by super wearyness.went to buy a xxxxxxL mocha and sat in the middle of the school waiting for the zombie inside of me to consume me.but luckily,casey came down to school early and i sooooooo neeeded to talk soooo yay!
ok maybe i didnt handle this so well like i think i will.
Yup yup yup yup no need to just hear the rumours.you're hearing from me.Yes i broke up with lydia.why?i dunno?was just trying to fish out something from her mouth after feeling something weird over the week and i just realised maybe the pest didnt just go away after a swing.dont ask me why the helll i did that grace because i dont know why either.yes my god i still love her like crazy but i just feel that it wont be so perfect if i didnt want it to be.
Its all because i feel that the passion for each other is lost somewhere in between this seven months and i dread making it feels like meeting you is actually a drag.i was actually talking to someone about this issue when the exact same thing happened in the conversation with her.we didnt quarrel and she just left after departing from my house i have no idea what struck me but i just felt that i love her alot and ill do anything to rectify the problem even if it means to just break up or something.i really want the best for her.whether if its with me or w/o but i only wanna just make her happy or something.i realised i can no longer make her happy like the way i can before.At this very place,i was leaving this place after a day of excitement and suddenly i just felt like calling her up and she was like sooooo nice.she accompaned me in the conversation throughout the journey.actually it was mentioned to me that its really childish to think that everything is gonna be the same after 6 months but i blanctantly pushed that thought away thinking "naaaa everything is just gonna be fine".somehow the love we had for 3 days have caused me to fucked everything else including my impartial judgenment into conning myself to believe that everything is gonna be okay.
You have no idea how much this change is affecting me because alot of things have changed.my frens,my group the change i am anticipating is too much for me to handle and somehow you're included.somethings never ever change,things like me and my mouth and my super rowdy charactor.i think i went to mummfied my ablity to be sweet and i took it out the moment i came out.but i think i lost touch or something but i still managed to make some other's heart melt.
But than i really dunno how to solve the problem that is between us because i'm really in love.but i have no idea how am i gonna turn the problem that we have into something that will make us closer.i really dread the feeling of this helplessness and the only way for us now is maybe we should just stop and give ourselves some time to think about what is it that we really want.
Well..actually what i needed is actually just an opportunity to give you some time to think about me,us and the days of our life that is yet to come.
i know very well what i want.
All i want is you and just you.
nothing can be more expensive than just a moment spent with you knowing that you love me like the way i do.
Its been a long time.really tooo long since i was engaged in something that is actually within my grasp.Before that was just an episode of absoutely fetish for a fairy tale and nothing more than that.what i wanted was actually something which is weirdly perfectly and the feeling of just being in love in a fairy tale.but unfortuantely,i kinda of gave up trying to pursue something so beautiful.what i need is someone who is actually going on a journey with me trying to get someone who i can trust,talk and enjoy every second of it.i realised how foolish i was when i finally found it.Yes it was you.its just you.plain white tee's.
i needed to know whether we will just freeze time and just lay dead there in each other's arm like i know you will.actually to be realistic,i know you would.And since i feel that way,all i wanted to do was to just cherish you,not making myself have any chance to jepadise this love.YUP.
i was infatuated with just your pure and noisy company and it sooo happen that someting that screwed got to happen and i've got to go.
On the day when i came out,(which so happened to be your birthday)i was confused/worried/scared to even call you worrying that our story will just end on that day.baby,p.s i love you.
But the scenario which i dread so much was extended to three weeks into my discharge day and i really enjoyed it.i seriously did.i dunno if you felt it there but whatever i was doing for you,i was doing it with my heart with love almost imprinted on every single detail and i would almost killed someone if something were just to screw up.This feeling,how i like..
Even though it have pretty much out-lived,i enjoyed it.every single second of it.we were like a newly wed which blush with the sight of love on each other's face.please,i would pay a thousand blessing just for a tiny sprinkle or that.
Anyway,even though how much i regreted this decision that i made,i found something which i lost somewhere along this seven months.
This wonderful urge to just wanna know more about you!
i discovered this feeling inside of the whole lot of sadness i was feeling the whole day!
hey hey hey im really happy.really really happy now.i finally found this feeling than we've lost.
this absoute sadness is what is really missing in me.
You live to regret only after you've lost it
whatever it is,even if its too late or whatever.im just really really really happy that i found it again.
The urge of just being in love with you again.
signing off because greg and aaron is COMING!
cyaz people.
<3 p.s i love you.
This little tiny part of me just wanna tell you
I MISS YOU LYDIA.
things changes but something just cant.
i love you like i never did before.
P.s i love you.
P.s i love you.
P.s i love you.
P.s i love you.
what a sad day!sob sob sob.in days to come i have to live with this sadness.
bite me.
Thinking back,the fattest elephant in india.
nothing compare to that now.
YOU
XOXO
Sad/happy/angry/me?
Sad/happy/angry/me?