Driving record
Monday, March 31, 2008
♥
-10:25 PM
the bit and pieces of information that i've been gathering around really just tells me what is the kind of things that i've been missing out.
you know,thinking back i really really think i am really childish.Forging an freaking mc so i could spend more time with lydia?
so that i could get away with it just so that i can really be with lydia?
that is one childish jj for you.
a childish person creating a childish act that landed me in 7 months of exile.
I thought i could be the one for you.
I thought i would really just settle down and be with you for as long as i can.
But what have i done?taking short-cuts turning ends just spend a momentarily happiness that didnt even last.?
hey,when we started having feelings for each other,the feelings is seriously overwhelming and the feeing of just you still keep me lingering in tears even now as i am blogging.
all i wanted to do was just to ignore everything else on this earth to ourselves.i know you want it too.But little did i think that i totaly ignored the fact that by doing that,i would get myself into more hot soup and hence the absence of me for 7 months.
Its not only you you know.
Been keeping this stuffs to myself since i had this really really shitty experience worrying for two of the closest people in my life.
They are the light of my life;being there when i am down;always always thinking the best for me.
At the point when i found you,the first few people that i announced to it them and they are really the angels of my life feeling really really happy for me.
As in seriously.
Even though i have justin as my bestfriend,but he will never be caring enough and loving enough to take the place of you two.
And right here at this moment,i am here worrying for you two because of a case which you two carelessly rolled yourselves in.
Even though i am utterly disappointed with you two because i told you two before never ever do that without me because no one can be trusted cep us because i dont treat you two as friends.You two made jj who he is and i cannot bite the hand who made me.
But nevermind,what done is done and it cannot be undone.
Its okay,so i really try my best to make time for you two whenever you two held meetings on what to say and cracking my brain on how to answer the questions they will shoot you.
the feeling of not being inside this situation make me wish that i didnt skipped school those 3 days even though they are part of the best days of my life spending 23/3 hours with lydia.
But still i wanna be part of this than at least i no need to stand from this angle and worry for you two.
This few days is hell for me believe me.
been asking everyone where the hell are you casey ng and you had been drinking your kidney out just to escape from the problem.Please take my words in heart because i am really really trying my best to assure you that its all gonna be alright and when things are finally showing some hope,gervais you dickhead went to spill out the beans.
And here i am again looking at you getting lost and helpless.
If i can take your place for you,i would.
I really will.
Sometimes just a word from you that telling me that you are okay is gonna turn my sleepless nights into deep slumbers.
This helplessness.someone please help me.
And on top of all this events,it made me feel how freaking retarded i was making all the crap that i am not suppose to make.
The probation is one.
The always being late before the curfew is another.
i always remember on a saturday night,when everyone is enjoying themselves including me,someone who really cares about me like greg,casey,zad,marcus,alex,ken,kw and more would come up to me and ask me to go home.its not because they dont enjoy my company or couldnt use a talent slot for dota.Its because they are worried for me for breaching my curfew and never fail to nag me to go home.And the way i get so turn off with all that at the point of time,it just make me feel so childish now.John even ban me from going to his house because he is afraid that i will get caught on the way there.
Can you see the love among the circle of jj?
Even with the incessant nagging from angels and airwaves,i still choose to turn a deaf ear on them and i ended myself home late everyday making my probation officer scream and shout even though how nice she is as a elder.she is 63 for god's sake and she still needs to worry about me.Maybe that is the reason why no one ever trust that i have tuition.
This never ending fun just ended when i met lydia liao which turn my life into a picture which only compose of colours.
The first time i met you,you looked awesome.you behaved awesome.you made me so infatuated with you.
I was really deciding to marry you.
But than came along my normal self.
when i am with you,it feels like the best thing that is happening in my life and i try to preserve it.I am a human i am not god.i cannot change the things i dont like to my comfort.So,i did this.A futile attempt to just spend a full week with you.
no doubt i totally enjoyed myself getting chicken pok and the remaining recovering days with you,the price which i paid is really latinfying.
I lost 7 months of my life to a mundane place where i eat and sleep and terrorize people physically everyday.
Day and night i thought of you thinking how foolish i am to land myself in this soup.
This was only bit and pieces of thoughts that i was habouring inside.
Now,checking at your archives and some of my friends archives,
i cried.
i really did.
i could have been here for you.
you could have dote on my family with me by your side.
all the things that happened might not happened if i am here.
the sleepless nights.
the loneliness.
what have i done?
my friends.
how could i ever imagined to have caused such a major uproar in this little group.To think i was childish enough to think that this group will never change and we will have 40 people down in town all playing the same game talking about the same thing and things will stay the same forever.i'm just foolish enough just to think that it will be like that but the sad fact that i am not there to witness the breaking is even more hard to accept.
Am i suppose to have a group now?
a group which consist of 40 people almost everyday making my life as perfect as it would be w/o a gf?
i was single for almost 5 months and i didnt feel anything.nothing at all.Its because the fun is really covering up for everything.
everyday we had something to do.
what is it that i am lacking now?
maybe my lost of 7 months.
dont talk about turning back time because that is really not possible but if i can get the sense of what i was feeling 8 months ago,i would die a w/o any regrets.
The shit feeling that evryone will feel thinking how i am doing inside.the feeling of in a moment of days and they lost someone.its somehow familar with the feeling that i am feeling now ya?
what if something happen to casey and jia.
i will die.
i would drown myself in the sinful drops of barcadi.
hey people,
sorry for the shit i put you all through.
sorry for the shit i made you all worry as if its not your problems because you cared.
I think i not only owe you all this apology.
Baby.
i think i owe the most to you.
the days when you needed me,the days when you finally found someone who you know you will be with forever,i am really sorry for not being by your side for the past 7 months.
All i know is that during that point of time,1 day without me by your side is hell and that explains why we have the urge of meeting each other every single day of our lives.i feel the same way too.
the harmful fact that you were not even with me for more than a week and you can actually stay my house and lied to your mother makes me feel awfully gulity but the fact that i love you so much and the fact that i really enjoyed the night;the milo was made with love and care that is why it tasted so good.The look i have for you before and after i went in,the look that whenever i am doing something for you that is full of concentration and care;the look when at one glance,you know its for you.
all the little intricate things that i would have do,all shatter because i went in.
and checking your archives,no matter who hong wee is;no matter how hot and handsome he is,he wouldnt stand a chance against me because its us.Something so special that i dont think anyone will stand up to even if its brad pit which i adore.
the lonely fact that if i am with you,i wont let a single bit of our love escape to another guy.
the fact that now your love is being divided to god knows how many people,i just wish to turn back all that is left of this and head back into the part where we just started and preserve it which never did have the chance too.
what can i do now baby?
you know,thinking back i really really think i am really childish.Forging an freaking mc so i could spend more time with lydia?
so that i could get away with it just so that i can really be with lydia?
that is one childish jj for you.
a childish person creating a childish act that landed me in 7 months of exile.
I thought i could be the one for you.
I thought i would really just settle down and be with you for as long as i can.
But what have i done?taking short-cuts turning ends just spend a momentarily happiness that didnt even last.?
hey,when we started having feelings for each other,the feelings is seriously overwhelming and the feeing of just you still keep me lingering in tears even now as i am blogging.
all i wanted to do was just to ignore everything else on this earth to ourselves.i know you want it too.But little did i think that i totaly ignored the fact that by doing that,i would get myself into more hot soup and hence the absence of me for 7 months.
Its not only you you know.
Been keeping this stuffs to myself since i had this really really shitty experience worrying for two of the closest people in my life.
They are the light of my life;being there when i am down;always always thinking the best for me.
At the point when i found you,the first few people that i announced to it them and they are really the angels of my life feeling really really happy for me.
As in seriously.
Even though i have justin as my bestfriend,but he will never be caring enough and loving enough to take the place of you two.
And right here at this moment,i am here worrying for you two because of a case which you two carelessly rolled yourselves in.
Even though i am utterly disappointed with you two because i told you two before never ever do that without me because no one can be trusted cep us because i dont treat you two as friends.You two made jj who he is and i cannot bite the hand who made me.
But nevermind,what done is done and it cannot be undone.
Its okay,so i really try my best to make time for you two whenever you two held meetings on what to say and cracking my brain on how to answer the questions they will shoot you.
the feeling of not being inside this situation make me wish that i didnt skipped school those 3 days even though they are part of the best days of my life spending 23/3 hours with lydia.
But still i wanna be part of this than at least i no need to stand from this angle and worry for you two.
This few days is hell for me believe me.
been asking everyone where the hell are you casey ng and you had been drinking your kidney out just to escape from the problem.Please take my words in heart because i am really really trying my best to assure you that its all gonna be alright and when things are finally showing some hope,gervais you dickhead went to spill out the beans.
And here i am again looking at you getting lost and helpless.
If i can take your place for you,i would.
I really will.
Sometimes just a word from you that telling me that you are okay is gonna turn my sleepless nights into deep slumbers.
This helplessness.someone please help me.
And on top of all this events,it made me feel how freaking retarded i was making all the crap that i am not suppose to make.
The probation is one.
The always being late before the curfew is another.
i always remember on a saturday night,when everyone is enjoying themselves including me,someone who really cares about me like greg,casey,zad,marcus,alex,ken,kw and more would come up to me and ask me to go home.its not because they dont enjoy my company or couldnt use a talent slot for dota.Its because they are worried for me for breaching my curfew and never fail to nag me to go home.And the way i get so turn off with all that at the point of time,it just make me feel so childish now.John even ban me from going to his house because he is afraid that i will get caught on the way there.
Can you see the love among the circle of jj?
Even with the incessant nagging from angels and airwaves,i still choose to turn a deaf ear on them and i ended myself home late everyday making my probation officer scream and shout even though how nice she is as a elder.she is 63 for god's sake and she still needs to worry about me.Maybe that is the reason why no one ever trust that i have tuition.
This never ending fun just ended when i met lydia liao which turn my life into a picture which only compose of colours.
The first time i met you,you looked awesome.you behaved awesome.you made me so infatuated with you.
I was really deciding to marry you.
But than came along my normal self.
when i am with you,it feels like the best thing that is happening in my life and i try to preserve it.I am a human i am not god.i cannot change the things i dont like to my comfort.So,i did this.A futile attempt to just spend a full week with you.
no doubt i totally enjoyed myself getting chicken pok and the remaining recovering days with you,the price which i paid is really latinfying.
I lost 7 months of my life to a mundane place where i eat and sleep and terrorize people physically everyday.
Day and night i thought of you thinking how foolish i am to land myself in this soup.
This was only bit and pieces of thoughts that i was habouring inside.
Now,checking at your archives and some of my friends archives,
i cried.
i really did.
i could have been here for you.
you could have dote on my family with me by your side.
all the things that happened might not happened if i am here.
the sleepless nights.
the loneliness.
what have i done?
my friends.
how could i ever imagined to have caused such a major uproar in this little group.To think i was childish enough to think that this group will never change and we will have 40 people down in town all playing the same game talking about the same thing and things will stay the same forever.i'm just foolish enough just to think that it will be like that but the sad fact that i am not there to witness the breaking is even more hard to accept.
Am i suppose to have a group now?
a group which consist of 40 people almost everyday making my life as perfect as it would be w/o a gf?
i was single for almost 5 months and i didnt feel anything.nothing at all.Its because the fun is really covering up for everything.
everyday we had something to do.
what is it that i am lacking now?
maybe my lost of 7 months.
dont talk about turning back time because that is really not possible but if i can get the sense of what i was feeling 8 months ago,i would die a w/o any regrets.
The shit feeling that evryone will feel thinking how i am doing inside.the feeling of in a moment of days and they lost someone.its somehow familar with the feeling that i am feeling now ya?
what if something happen to casey and jia.
i will die.
i would drown myself in the sinful drops of barcadi.
hey people,
sorry for the shit i put you all through.
sorry for the shit i made you all worry as if its not your problems because you cared.
I think i not only owe you all this apology.
Baby.
i think i owe the most to you.
the days when you needed me,the days when you finally found someone who you know you will be with forever,i am really sorry for not being by your side for the past 7 months.
All i know is that during that point of time,1 day without me by your side is hell and that explains why we have the urge of meeting each other every single day of our lives.i feel the same way too.
the harmful fact that you were not even with me for more than a week and you can actually stay my house and lied to your mother makes me feel awfully gulity but the fact that i love you so much and the fact that i really enjoyed the night;the milo was made with love and care that is why it tasted so good.The look i have for you before and after i went in,the look that whenever i am doing something for you that is full of concentration and care;the look when at one glance,you know its for you.
all the little intricate things that i would have do,all shatter because i went in.
and checking your archives,no matter who hong wee is;no matter how hot and handsome he is,he wouldnt stand a chance against me because its us.Something so special that i dont think anyone will stand up to even if its brad pit which i adore.
the lonely fact that if i am with you,i wont let a single bit of our love escape to another guy.
the fact that now your love is being divided to god knows how many people,i just wish to turn back all that is left of this and head back into the part where we just started and preserve it which never did have the chance too.
what can i do now baby?
i will hug you.
XOXO
Sad/happy/angry/me?
Sad/happy/angry/me?
Sunday, March 30, 2008
♥
-10:03 PM
Cheeky?
i dont think so?
i can see that you love me alot baby.
----
Awesome day with a awesome mood started off with the scaring of lydia!=)
commenced when she alighted and gave her a fright of the life!=)
i think i'm really really retarded.On the way to the bus-stop,i danced to low.
Am i jj or what?
=)=)
I think i really really enjoyed myself today.
its really really a awesome mood with an awesome company!
she was really being very nice too
trying to keep up with my mood but ended up with getting wounded by my unfathomable actions.
But i really really really alot more alive yesterday & today after that little heart-warming talk that landed me into tears T.T
We were talking about almost everything under the sun which says JJ I <3>
i dont think so?
i can see that you love me alot baby.
----
Awesome day with a awesome mood started off with the scaring of lydia!=)
commenced when she alighted and gave her a fright of the life!=)
i think i'm really really retarded.On the way to the bus-stop,i danced to low.
Am i jj or what?
=)=)
I think i really really enjoyed myself today.
its really really a awesome mood with an awesome company!
she was really being very nice too
trying to keep up with my mood but ended up with getting wounded by my unfathomable actions.
But i really really really alot more alive yesterday & today after that little heart-warming talk that landed me into tears T.T
We were talking about almost everything under the sun which says JJ I <3>
Than came the sad part where we have to part.Sobs sobs sobs.
But oh well we part to meet again.Right right right baby?=)
-0-
Super man me with a super high and cheeky mood went to call lovely,dovey ONG KUAN WEI and psychoed him to accompany on this B.O.R.I.N.G sunday.(everyday will be boring w/o U yo)
and super nice man he came down and accompany me=)
while we were there,met my little friend jadon wong dickhead which totally spoiled my day.
YOU ARE THE FIRST PERSON IN FIVE YEARS THAT TOLD ME THAT YOU FORGETTEN MY NAME.
And so i was whining to marcus and ken "so i dont make a impact in other people's live luh!"
DAMN EVIL.
But than sweet little marcus went to comfort saying you know actually i mattered to him.
That is like the sweetest thing other than casey and jia that is happening so far.
Dear marcus,
You also matter to me.
like a ton please.
Marcus is a freak luh!
he didnt sleep for the past 26 hours and he really really dont look like he tonned.
he almost looked as energetic as me man.
my goodness.
Ken ko is another one!
he also didnt looked like he tonned.
And i was spending 2 hours of my life catching up on marcus and his life.
By the way marcus,i really really really happy to be one of the few to know about you and mummy last time and i know that i will still be one of the few if you ever get to like someone,which i think will not happen soon=)
Youuu are too cool.blanka.
And after the senior talk with people 3 years my senior,I'm really adamant about poly.
My goodness.
I cant freaking wait to go there!
But oh well we part to meet again.Right right right baby?=)
-0-
Super man me with a super high and cheeky mood went to call lovely,dovey ONG KUAN WEI and psychoed him to accompany on this B.O.R.I.N.G sunday.(everyday will be boring w/o U yo)
and super nice man he came down and accompany me=)
while we were there,met my little friend jadon wong dickhead which totally spoiled my day.
YOU ARE THE FIRST PERSON IN FIVE YEARS THAT TOLD ME THAT YOU FORGETTEN MY NAME.
And so i was whining to marcus and ken "so i dont make a impact in other people's live luh!"
DAMN EVIL.
But than sweet little marcus went to comfort saying you know actually i mattered to him.
That is like the sweetest thing other than casey and jia that is happening so far.
Dear marcus,
You also matter to me.
like a ton please.
Marcus is a freak luh!
he didnt sleep for the past 26 hours and he really really dont look like he tonned.
he almost looked as energetic as me man.
my goodness.
Ken ko is another one!
he also didnt looked like he tonned.
And i was spending 2 hours of my life catching up on marcus and his life.
By the way marcus,i really really really happy to be one of the few to know about you and mummy last time and i know that i will still be one of the few if you ever get to like someone,which i think will not happen soon=)
Youuu are too cool.blanka.
And after the senior talk with people 3 years my senior,I'm really adamant about poly.
My goodness.
I cant freaking wait to go there!
NGEE ANN POLY.
The place to be when jj is there=)
HoHoHo.
And i am cracking everyone up with my retardedness making stupid retarded comments like as if i'm the only one that mattered.LOL.
Went on to play dota with ONG KW and jadon the dickhead and owned some hard-up ass.
+)+)
Everyone left cep me and kw and we started talking about life and how i should developed my talents to serve my god my country and my school.
Okay i am being retarded,i am reciting the student's creed for ACS (barker road):P
Kw is still the angel i know that he is.
and maybe all this is just gifts from god and i will really really cherish them.
I love you kw!++
-0-
I was sharing my infinte sense of taste telling him what i wanna buy the following week and jio him to shop with me.
I got my eyes on you cardigan!
you cannot run away from me!
I got my eyes on you jeannys.
you cannot run away from me!
=)
-0-
I think my blog is quite dead and i'm thinking whether i should revive it.
Hmm..
Maybe i just like to talk to myself.
=)
-0-
Darling,you're working now and i got the really really strong feeling that you influenced me to work with you.You are dearly missed by me and of course all your peeks because you're just such a nice person.All the things that you do for me,dont worry because i am also doing it back to you.
P.s i love you.
XOXO
Sad/happy/angry/me?
Sad/happy/angry/me?
Thursday, March 27, 2008
♥
-10:37 PM
OH MY GOODNESS I THINK I JUST RE-SYNC MY IPOD WHICH MEANS ALL MY OLD SONGS ARE GONE.THATS SAD SAD SAD.
POUTS
POUTS
XOXO
Sad/happy/angry/me?
Sad/happy/angry/me?
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
♥
-11:31 PM
I THINK I AM FREAKING RETARDED.
I SENT AN AOE MSG TO EVERYONE IN MY CONTACT BUT I FORGET TO INCLUDE WHO I AM SO I AM GETTING REPLYS LIKE WHO I AM?
I AM SO RETARDED I GOT TOO MANY REPLYS TILL MY FONE IS LAGGING NOW HAHAHA I AM SUCH A RETARD.
WHERE ARE YOU BABY WHEN I CAN WHINE TO YOU?OMG GOODNESS!
I SENT AN AOE MSG TO EVERYONE IN MY CONTACT BUT I FORGET TO INCLUDE WHO I AM SO I AM GETTING REPLYS LIKE WHO I AM?
I AM SO RETARDED I GOT TOO MANY REPLYS TILL MY FONE IS LAGGING NOW HAHAHA I AM SUCH A RETARD.
WHERE ARE YOU BABY WHEN I CAN WHINE TO YOU?OMG GOODNESS!
XOXO
Sad/happy/angry/me?
Sad/happy/angry/me?
♥
-9:55 PM
isn't it always just you?
"i woke up it was seven,waited till eleven just to figure out i was ill"
=)=)
woke up to my alarm clock(mummy leong)
and i'm still ill.So sad.
something was up with the class 5e1 at tpy hub and i'm sorry i cant be there=)
Miss liao came over in the morning to buy breadfast for my family and also to grab her wallet.
old chang kee sotong was in the cab when she realised she left her wallet in my house and luckily she met a nice uncle which waited for her downstairs when she rush up to grab cash for the cabfare.
Not bad Not bad.
What a lady.
=)
spent the entire time admiring her beauty which leads to something else later.
-
All good things come to an end yeah?
Miss liao need to head down to town for work soooo we parted at cove=)
After that went down to meet shi toh,kay poe,kas and susu aka lynette:P
Talked about the massive ongoings about class 5e1 before our usual peacefulness is being invaded by white vaders:P
"i woke up it was seven,waited till eleven just to figure out i was ill"
=)=)
woke up to my alarm clock(mummy leong)
and i'm still ill.So sad.
something was up with the class 5e1 at tpy hub and i'm sorry i cant be there=)
Miss liao came over in the morning to buy breadfast for my family and also to grab her wallet.
old chang kee sotong was in the cab when she realised she left her wallet in my house and luckily she met a nice uncle which waited for her downstairs when she rush up to grab cash for the cabfare.
Not bad Not bad.
What a lady.
=)
spent the entire time admiring her beauty which leads to something else later.
-
All good things come to an end yeah?
Miss liao need to head down to town for work soooo we parted at cove=)
After that went down to meet shi toh,kay poe,kas and susu aka lynette:P
Talked about the massive ongoings about class 5e1 before our usual peacefulness is being invaded by white vaders:P
Tauntings!
always sweep the floor first?
dont be scared?
Fighting back yo?
so thats jia being really happy today playing with the little white vaders:P
the guy in blue is sooooo darn cute!
my goodness!
i was heels over head over him!
=)
and the clink five than venture into far east plaza to accompany me to buy chirpys and than i cab home with xXxxiaoo kasxXx=)
actually i'm just using this opportunity to use my camera=)
I love my new phone!
I just love my life.
Obviously you're not forgetten Miss liao!
I love you.
so did you hear my question just now when love was in the air and absolute cuddling was involed?=)
please tell me its a yes because I am serious!=)
i'm in awe of your touch.
3 days of you.
how come the urge for you isnt dissipating?
maybe because it never will?
find comfort in that will you?=)
P.s i so darn love you.
XOXO
Sad/happy/angry/me?
Sad/happy/angry/me?
♥
-12:58 AM
I'm so sway luh!
once again the "strong" JJ succumb to the temptations of being ill,
The feeling of being a king when you're ill having every single thing being taken care of just feels great=)
Just that this time i'll have this honours not to my mother,but the ever loving babe of united states of jj kingdom:P
Lydia liao simin=)
shes been coming my house for the past 2 days to take care of me and having bonding sessions with my mother and learning how to cook=)
i'm really happy that i have such a awesome mother that can clink with almost anyone and in this case is the best thing ever,my girl friend=)
anyway,i think i have something up my neck and i really need to get it off sooooo i brought her down after constant motivation from tabby=)
THANK YOU TABBY.
everything turned out quite well and somehow i think we will be better after i hearing it from your mouth instead of always facing you that you're keeping something from me.
You have no idea how happy i am after settling this problem for us!
i feel like i'm over the moon now!>>>>>>reborn<<<<<
anyway,came across this two matters today!
once again the "strong" JJ succumb to the temptations of being ill,
The feeling of being a king when you're ill having every single thing being taken care of just feels great=)
Just that this time i'll have this honours not to my mother,but the ever loving babe of united states of jj kingdom:P
Lydia liao simin=)
shes been coming my house for the past 2 days to take care of me and having bonding sessions with my mother and learning how to cook=)
i'm really happy that i have such a awesome mother that can clink with almost anyone and in this case is the best thing ever,my girl friend=)
anyway,i think i have something up my neck and i really need to get it off sooooo i brought her down after constant motivation from tabby=)
THANK YOU TABBY.
everything turned out quite well and somehow i think we will be better after i hearing it from your mouth instead of always facing you that you're keeping something from me.
You have no idea how happy i am after settling this problem for us!
i feel like i'm over the moon now!>>>>>>reborn<<<<<
anyway,came across this two matters today!
Firstly,i think my fren just put it on her nick that she thinks shes in love with me.
The only thing i would like to say is that i love lydia liao simin and i dread to make myself sound so corny by saying love her forever but i'll just be realistic,i will love lydia untill i'm old and i'll keep her for as long as i can:P right greg?:P:P
I'm sorry for being myself.
I'm sorry for being jj making you like me.
i cannot be with you.
I only love lydia liao simin.
Secondly,i was clinking on friendster and saw little julynn and i clink on her and kinda of browse of her stuffs;P
Than went to her blog to check on her archive and stumbled across this.
it reminds me of you as well. You left my live just as abruptly as u entered it, and now im supp to piece together everything to come up with a good reason for it. I understand that you have your reasons, but at the very least, you should have said bye. You should have.
Julynn goh,
i'm really sorry that i didnt say bye.
i'm really sorry!
but what matters is that i'm out!
And we will still be the best of friends i will make sure if something were to ever happen,you will be the first to be notify!=)
really sorry kay!=)
-
My dearest baby just called me to tell me that our favorite show is the last episode now!
And i'm chionging the show now!
i'm at the peak of my live having the best of both world,my mother and lydia liao!:P
been talking about god just now and THANK YOU ALMIGHTY LORD!
i really got to go watch the show now and ciao to my comfy comfy bed and watch tv=)ciao people:P
i felt i've accomplised alot alot alot and I LOVE YOU LYDIA LIAO.
This two days is great baby,
I love the way you tell me how you love cooking with my mother.
I love the way how you beg me to come my house in the morning to take care of me.
I love the way how you empasize i'm the only one,only one you love.
i love the way how i can just tell you all the ongoings about my life.
All in all,
Baby,i love you.Believe me because you chose me.And i know i wont make you regret your choice!
The only thing i would like to say is that i love lydia liao simin and i dread to make myself sound so corny by saying love her forever but i'll just be realistic,i will love lydia untill i'm old and i'll keep her for as long as i can:P right greg?:P:P
I'm sorry for being myself.
I'm sorry for being jj making you like me.
i cannot be with you.
I only love lydia liao simin.
Secondly,i was clinking on friendster and saw little julynn and i clink on her and kinda of browse of her stuffs;P
Than went to her blog to check on her archive and stumbled across this.
it reminds me of you as well. You left my live just as abruptly as u entered it, and now im supp to piece together everything to come up with a good reason for it. I understand that you have your reasons, but at the very least, you should have said bye. You should have.
Julynn goh,
i'm really sorry that i didnt say bye.
i'm really sorry!
but what matters is that i'm out!
And we will still be the best of friends i will make sure if something were to ever happen,you will be the first to be notify!=)
really sorry kay!=)
-
My dearest baby just called me to tell me that our favorite show is the last episode now!
And i'm chionging the show now!
i'm at the peak of my live having the best of both world,my mother and lydia liao!:P
been talking about god just now and THANK YOU ALMIGHTY LORD!
i really got to go watch the show now and ciao to my comfy comfy bed and watch tv=)ciao people:P
i felt i've accomplised alot alot alot and I LOVE YOU LYDIA LIAO.
This two days is great baby,
I love the way you tell me how you love cooking with my mother.
I love the way how you beg me to come my house in the morning to take care of me.
I love the way how you empasize i'm the only one,only one you love.
i love the way how i can just tell you all the ongoings about my life.
All in all,
Baby,i love you.Believe me because you chose me.And i know i wont make you regret your choice!
XOXO
Sad/happy/angry/me?
Sad/happy/angry/me?
Sunday, March 23, 2008
♥
-1:52 AM
Another saturday JUST that its SPECIAL!
A big big big big big sorry and happy birthday leng leng.
like i promised,you're 20th birthday next year is gonna be a blast because i'm organising it.kay kay kay?=)
Today was special not only because its leng leng's birthday but also because its was spent with lydia!=)
well,i always hated mundane relationships and lovely dovey stupid cupid invited me to some party in her church's office.Even though its located at some wu lu pandang place,i still enjoyed it anyhow because its nice and cozy=)
I was quite ashamed of myself because we're suppose to be watcing the little clip which significy a relationship with two people but i was caught off guarded with the awesome beauty right next to me.In my heart was like please do not ask me anything about the clip,ask me something about lydia instead,i can remember every single detail about her because i'm just too obsessed with her.i can practically staring at her throughout the whole clip without her notice=)and there she go getting engrossed in the clip trying to think of possible answers and living up to the expectations of a "model" student:P
But somehow she does it in a way that is sooooooooooo mesmerizing till i cant stop looking at her.Thats the explaination i can only give for being a bad christian.I'm sorry almighty lord for not paying attention to you but i'm just doing it another way by cherishing this jewel you bestow to me.
She is damn sweet luh!She served me like as if i'm the only one there and every single thing like whether i needed chilli was asked.
Well,i wont notice it if its from someone else because i always get this kind of attention but than its from her and i feel this absoute helplessness when she askes me because i really couldnt reject her given its some sort of way of telling me that she loves me.Like i told you before baby,i've seen broken relationship that is way beyond repair but i'll make sure mine goes perfectly fine.
we may seem young for now but trust me,i have no idea why i have so much confidence in us but i know if something just crop up on the way and i lose you,i wont be as strong as i said i would.I will just break down and cry.I hate this feeling when i know i found it and i'll do anything in my means to keep it but still lost it in the end.
Firstly,let me kick away this feeling and let myself be THE ONE.
I know i love you.
I know you love me too.
Thats enough for me.
No need to worry anymore.
-
I met some of her church peeks today and i would like to empasize this particular charactor.
I think all the junjie in this world is somehow perfect in one way or another.
This junjie is her church is a incessant talker and is the perfect company when you're alive.
Although i'm always so talkative too and i get along with people really well,this is a ultra catalys
to a healthy relationship given that both our charactor are so amiable=)
And also,i'm suprised how much lydia talks about me given the huge amount of facts that junjie knows about me and i ask how you know?oh oh oh from lydia=)
Once again baby,you just did something to make me crazy over you all over again.
Went to play D.O.T.A with them and we lost because i was trying very very hard to protect my dear baby from dying and whacking creeps to near death and have little darling to chain so that she could farm.She had almost the full gear of a near ownage zeus at the end but we lost the game because i was too careless in letting JUNJIE farm and lost.
But i think its okay because as long as baby enjoy her game owning people;that is the fun i'm looking for.
After a streneous game trying to be the holy knight of her,JUNJIE MISSED HIS BUS WHICH SET STUPID CUPID AND TABBY INTO A UNCONTROLLABLE LAUGHTER.=)
Waited with him till his bus came and waited for daddy to come fetch us home after weaving a WHITE lie to hook us home:P
But it was a bad attempt because he got scolded sometime this day and he is so grumpy making me so ps in the cab.
Somehow i think tabby didnt stay baby's house and alighted just to take another cab home.SEE daddy,i think you're such a meanie sometimes.
I'm sorry somehow or another.
And the scenes home is the ones that got me blogging!
The awful siliness you always get me hooked.
The awesome beauty that you possess.
Somehow i wonder,what will happen if your daddy and mummy didnt meet each other?
I think this jj wont even be the same jj.
Life just wont be the same without lydia liao simin.
Marry me wont you?
-
You're so sweet when you turn up unexpectedly at my doorstep.You're so sweet when you finish up the whole cup of tasteless milo just because I made it for you.You're so sweet when you concentrate so hard on fixing the present you made for me.You're so sweet when you gasp & jump to my rescue when I bump into things.You're so sweet, you make me melt.
It's now close to 2, & you just left my house. Baby, thanks for everything. You never fail to make me feel so loved & doted on. I really feel like I'm so special to you, although I really feel undeserving of all your love & attention. I love you so
I am leong jun jie.
I love you for the way you are.
Baby,there should be never a time when you feel undeserving of my love because i know this relationship is neutral.
I used to say please tell me you love me like the way i love you.
But somehow this fetish of mine stopped because i know that you love me like the way i love you
The only time when you feel that its undeserving is when you did something wrong and i trust that you will not.But even if you do,please tell me.Dont lie to me.
Tell me after you read this kay.
Because no matter what you did,i will still forgive you because you are indeed the girl that i wanna marry.
This is bad.
If i wanna marry you,thats means my love for you will never stop untill the end of time and this is definetly not a sweet talk=)
Believe me will you?=)
I think this post is just about how much i love LYDIA LIAO SIMIN.
Sorry than people,bear with me.I'm hopelessly in love.
The way you concentrate,the way i cannot control myself when you give that look at the lanshop
it just keeps me coming back for more.
I love you like the way you love me.
More than yesterday.
P.s i love you.
A big big big big big sorry and happy birthday leng leng.
like i promised,you're 20th birthday next year is gonna be a blast because i'm organising it.kay kay kay?=)
Today was special not only because its leng leng's birthday but also because its was spent with lydia!=)
well,i always hated mundane relationships and lovely dovey stupid cupid invited me to some party in her church's office.Even though its located at some wu lu pandang place,i still enjoyed it anyhow because its nice and cozy=)
I was quite ashamed of myself because we're suppose to be watcing the little clip which significy a relationship with two people but i was caught off guarded with the awesome beauty right next to me.In my heart was like please do not ask me anything about the clip,ask me something about lydia instead,i can remember every single detail about her because i'm just too obsessed with her.i can practically staring at her throughout the whole clip without her notice=)and there she go getting engrossed in the clip trying to think of possible answers and living up to the expectations of a "model" student:P
But somehow she does it in a way that is sooooooooooo mesmerizing till i cant stop looking at her.Thats the explaination i can only give for being a bad christian.I'm sorry almighty lord for not paying attention to you but i'm just doing it another way by cherishing this jewel you bestow to me.
She is damn sweet luh!She served me like as if i'm the only one there and every single thing like whether i needed chilli was asked.
Well,i wont notice it if its from someone else because i always get this kind of attention but than its from her and i feel this absoute helplessness when she askes me because i really couldnt reject her given its some sort of way of telling me that she loves me.Like i told you before baby,i've seen broken relationship that is way beyond repair but i'll make sure mine goes perfectly fine.
we may seem young for now but trust me,i have no idea why i have so much confidence in us but i know if something just crop up on the way and i lose you,i wont be as strong as i said i would.I will just break down and cry.I hate this feeling when i know i found it and i'll do anything in my means to keep it but still lost it in the end.
Firstly,let me kick away this feeling and let myself be THE ONE.
I know i love you.
I know you love me too.
Thats enough for me.
No need to worry anymore.
-
I met some of her church peeks today and i would like to empasize this particular charactor.
I think all the junjie in this world is somehow perfect in one way or another.
This junjie is her church is a incessant talker and is the perfect company when you're alive.
Although i'm always so talkative too and i get along with people really well,this is a ultra catalys
to a healthy relationship given that both our charactor are so amiable=)
And also,i'm suprised how much lydia talks about me given the huge amount of facts that junjie knows about me and i ask how you know?oh oh oh from lydia=)
Once again baby,you just did something to make me crazy over you all over again.
Went to play D.O.T.A with them and we lost because i was trying very very hard to protect my dear baby from dying and whacking creeps to near death and have little darling to chain so that she could farm.She had almost the full gear of a near ownage zeus at the end but we lost the game because i was too careless in letting JUNJIE farm and lost.
But i think its okay because as long as baby enjoy her game owning people;that is the fun i'm looking for.
After a streneous game trying to be the holy knight of her,JUNJIE MISSED HIS BUS WHICH SET STUPID CUPID AND TABBY INTO A UNCONTROLLABLE LAUGHTER.=)
Waited with him till his bus came and waited for daddy to come fetch us home after weaving a WHITE lie to hook us home:P
But it was a bad attempt because he got scolded sometime this day and he is so grumpy making me so ps in the cab.
Somehow i think tabby didnt stay baby's house and alighted just to take another cab home.SEE daddy,i think you're such a meanie sometimes.
I'm sorry somehow or another.
And the scenes home is the ones that got me blogging!
The awful siliness you always get me hooked.
The awesome beauty that you possess.
Somehow i wonder,what will happen if your daddy and mummy didnt meet each other?
I think this jj wont even be the same jj.
Life just wont be the same without lydia liao simin.
Marry me wont you?
-
You're so sweet when you turn up unexpectedly at my doorstep.You're so sweet when you finish up the whole cup of tasteless milo just because I made it for you.You're so sweet when you concentrate so hard on fixing the present you made for me.You're so sweet when you gasp & jump to my rescue when I bump into things.You're so sweet, you make me melt.
It's now close to 2, & you just left my house. Baby, thanks for everything. You never fail to make me feel so loved & doted on. I really feel like I'm so special to you, although I really feel undeserving of all your love & attention. I love you so
I am leong jun jie.
I love you for the way you are.
Baby,there should be never a time when you feel undeserving of my love because i know this relationship is neutral.
I used to say please tell me you love me like the way i love you.
But somehow this fetish of mine stopped because i know that you love me like the way i love you
The only time when you feel that its undeserving is when you did something wrong and i trust that you will not.But even if you do,please tell me.Dont lie to me.
Tell me after you read this kay.
Because no matter what you did,i will still forgive you because you are indeed the girl that i wanna marry.
This is bad.
If i wanna marry you,thats means my love for you will never stop untill the end of time and this is definetly not a sweet talk=)
Believe me will you?=)
I think this post is just about how much i love LYDIA LIAO SIMIN.
Sorry than people,bear with me.I'm hopelessly in love.
The way you concentrate,the way i cannot control myself when you give that look at the lanshop
it just keeps me coming back for more.
I love you like the way you love me.
More than yesterday.
P.s i love you.
XOXO
Sad/happy/angry/me?
Sad/happy/angry/me?
Friday, March 21, 2008
♥
-4:46 PM
There always something or somewhat someone's got to give;Let me be the one.
Like finally?
I can finally blog in the comfort of my lovely home and sit back on my comfortable chair and let my inspiration go wild!=)
My internet is finally up after sooo frigging long!
its been such a long time since i last sat here and blog and it really feels so good!
The week is really fucked because i spend my entire time mugging for the upcoming exams which includes chem,history and MT.
MT is a killer which 60% of the cohart cannot finish the paper before the allocated time:P
i manage to pull it through just in the nick of 12.08.23PM(the paper end at 12.10.00)=)
I really have no mood to blog about what happen last week because it just suck with the excess studying.oh well!more of this will come,with the os approaching,i wonder how pass batches took it.
-
Ngee ann was awesome showing extreme class spirit by all shouting and racketing when some other class ring the bell=)
After that,went KAP to drool over secs girls as its the last year for us to be in sec:P
couldnt concentrate looking because my mind is all about lydia liao!
mmm.Its been coming close to 9months to us and 2 months into my discharge and i'm still smitten by her awesome aura.
But somehow i like this,
i like being in love.
i like being able to laugh at your silliness instead of thinking its stupid.
i like being able to feel happy when you're happy.
i like being able to feel sad when you're sad.
i like beng able to walk around shopping malls noticing all the things i wanna buy for you.
i like being able to always thinking of ways to make you smile.
i like being able to close my eyes every night knowing that you're smiling too.
ABOVE IS ONLY A PORTION OF MY LOVE FOR LYDIA LIAO SIMIN.
-
I'm now waiting for a old time friend to finish work so i'll go down and meet her=)
Thinking back,i'm really bad!
i kinda heck cared this bunch of friends by not making time to be with them
and one day when she started talking to me telling me how busy i always am and how long since i last talked to them,i feel so frigging bad.
And yesterday i just talked to diane and i'm just really sorry to say that because of me,you and cheryl have to fall out.
SORRY.
Thinking back again,i knew lydia for 5 years but i didnt really make time for her maybe thats why she hasnt been a part of me untill now.
with a unexpected twist of helplessness for barker carnival ticks,
i found you.
its you alright.
the best thing ever.
i dont think i would ever wanna wake up if this is a dream.
put me in perma slumber so i'll get to spend eternity with you.
okay the time now is 5.06.
Im really really late.
Ciao:P
I miss you baby.I miss you so much.Its been 5days since i last saw you and sadly to say,this just show the deterioration of our love.But dont worry i'll do something about it.
I love you yesterday,I love you today,I'll love you tommrrow too.
Like finally?
I can finally blog in the comfort of my lovely home and sit back on my comfortable chair and let my inspiration go wild!=)
My internet is finally up after sooo frigging long!
its been such a long time since i last sat here and blog and it really feels so good!
The week is really fucked because i spend my entire time mugging for the upcoming exams which includes chem,history and MT.
MT is a killer which 60% of the cohart cannot finish the paper before the allocated time:P
i manage to pull it through just in the nick of 12.08.23PM(the paper end at 12.10.00)=)
I really have no mood to blog about what happen last week because it just suck with the excess studying.oh well!more of this will come,with the os approaching,i wonder how pass batches took it.
-
Ngee ann was awesome showing extreme class spirit by all shouting and racketing when some other class ring the bell=)
After that,went KAP to drool over secs girls as its the last year for us to be in sec:P
couldnt concentrate looking because my mind is all about lydia liao!
mmm.Its been coming close to 9months to us and 2 months into my discharge and i'm still smitten by her awesome aura.
But somehow i like this,
i like being in love.
i like being able to laugh at your silliness instead of thinking its stupid.
i like being able to feel happy when you're happy.
i like being able to feel sad when you're sad.
i like beng able to walk around shopping malls noticing all the things i wanna buy for you.
i like being able to always thinking of ways to make you smile.
i like being able to close my eyes every night knowing that you're smiling too.
ABOVE IS ONLY A PORTION OF MY LOVE FOR LYDIA LIAO SIMIN.
-
I'm now waiting for a old time friend to finish work so i'll go down and meet her=)
Thinking back,i'm really bad!
i kinda heck cared this bunch of friends by not making time to be with them
and one day when she started talking to me telling me how busy i always am and how long since i last talked to them,i feel so frigging bad.
And yesterday i just talked to diane and i'm just really sorry to say that because of me,you and cheryl have to fall out.
SORRY.
Thinking back again,i knew lydia for 5 years but i didnt really make time for her maybe thats why she hasnt been a part of me untill now.
with a unexpected twist of helplessness for barker carnival ticks,
i found you.
its you alright.
the best thing ever.
i dont think i would ever wanna wake up if this is a dream.
put me in perma slumber so i'll get to spend eternity with you.
okay the time now is 5.06.
Im really really late.
Ciao:P
I miss you baby.I miss you so much.Its been 5days since i last saw you and sadly to say,this just show the deterioration of our love.But dont worry i'll do something about it.
I love you yesterday,I love you today,I'll love you tommrrow too.
XOXO
Sad/happy/angry/me?
Sad/happy/angry/me?
Saturday, March 01, 2008
♥
-10:27 AM
SATURDAY?
Start by going to tuition!
Yes start early,start fresh=)
Okay guys i kinda of sorted out the problem(s) between me and little india sooo yeah.
A big big big big big big thank you to all of you!you guys are great caring and evaluating the problem for me as if it really mean something.i myself didnt even know what is going on!
How irony.
Anyway okay.thursday was give birth day because four people which i know have their birthday.so here goes.
Happy birthday tab
Happy birthday kelvin
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNHAO
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY VAL!
So here goes.big big big birthday hugs for all of you!
-
Took my time on friday along with jia and casey to cathay to meet the rest for movie!
Start by going to tuition!
Yes start early,start fresh=)
Okay guys i kinda of sorted out the problem(s) between me and little india sooo yeah.
A big big big big big big thank you to all of you!you guys are great caring and evaluating the problem for me as if it really mean something.i myself didnt even know what is going on!
How irony.
Anyway okay.thursday was give birth day because four people which i know have their birthday.so here goes.
Happy birthday tab
Happy birthday kelvin
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNHAO
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY VAL!
So here goes.big big big birthday hugs for all of you!
-
Took my time on friday along with jia and casey to cathay to meet the rest for movie!
MeT sherli and cheryl inside and a old old old polo fren.=)
MEET THE SPARTANS IS SOOOOOOO BORING PLEASE.
fell asleep halfway into the movie because its sooo boring.
Cep for the spartan handshake which i find super apppealing=)
Julynn i know you're reading this like duh.you clink on my blog every second of your life!
Dont be shy.
I know.
hoHoho.
I will show you the handshake kay.bet you will remember something=)
-
I'm now sitting here doing nothing waiting for my tuition to start!hope ill find new friends which i think would be quite fun if im seriously having this tuition.
I haven been in a tuition for a decade now and i have no idea why i accepted it.
Hmm...
Yesterday was like another day because i was really really down and i didnt felt like going to school.So i slept till two and reported my ongoings to miss liao.
and i told her the plan to celebrate belated bday boy junhao because i was really busy on that day itself.soooo,invited her to come over to my house and we start bring jun hao and jun hui to rivervale plaza when i saw something i dont like.someone that offended me in boys home:P
Oh well.i saw him and i didnt felt like saying hi so oh well.i stood next to him though.
WE ARE OKAY LE LUH!
Yup we patched up yesterday.
Lydia stayed over my house yesterday after my auntie came and fetch my two little brothers over.
I'm trying my best not to argue with you daddy.can you please try too.
I just hope we can talk and discuss about business instead of quarreling over something which obviously i proved myself a long long time ago.
I have no mood to blog but ill just try.
Yesterday was one night which made me sooooo happy happy happy happy today.
like b/d in poa!
We were doing everything,talking rubbish on our first gfs/bfs and stuff like that.
DARLING,
I'm sorry i made your lips puffy.
I realised i could be more gentle.
My Godness.
I just remembered something,i'm in possesion of a elephant trunk.
The closest thing you can compare that with.
I dunno what to say honey.
What a night.
We slept at 4!
Better get used to it,your boyfriend is nonturnal!
right right right sis?we are!
=)
Tuition is starting and i got no mood to blog!
MEET THE SPARTANS IS SOOOOOOO BORING PLEASE.
fell asleep halfway into the movie because its sooo boring.
Cep for the spartan handshake which i find super apppealing=)
Julynn i know you're reading this like duh.you clink on my blog every second of your life!
Dont be shy.
I know.
hoHoho.
I will show you the handshake kay.bet you will remember something=)
-
I'm now sitting here doing nothing waiting for my tuition to start!hope ill find new friends which i think would be quite fun if im seriously having this tuition.
I haven been in a tuition for a decade now and i have no idea why i accepted it.
Hmm...
Yesterday was like another day because i was really really down and i didnt felt like going to school.So i slept till two and reported my ongoings to miss liao.
and i told her the plan to celebrate belated bday boy junhao because i was really busy on that day itself.soooo,invited her to come over to my house and we start bring jun hao and jun hui to rivervale plaza when i saw something i dont like.someone that offended me in boys home:P
Oh well.i saw him and i didnt felt like saying hi so oh well.i stood next to him though.
WE ARE OKAY LE LUH!
Yup we patched up yesterday.
Lydia stayed over my house yesterday after my auntie came and fetch my two little brothers over.
I'm trying my best not to argue with you daddy.can you please try too.
I just hope we can talk and discuss about business instead of quarreling over something which obviously i proved myself a long long time ago.
I have no mood to blog but ill just try.
Yesterday was one night which made me sooooo happy happy happy happy today.
like b/d in poa!
We were doing everything,talking rubbish on our first gfs/bfs and stuff like that.
DARLING,
I'm sorry i made your lips puffy.
I realised i could be more gentle.
My Godness.
I just remembered something,i'm in possesion of a elephant trunk.
The closest thing you can compare that with.
I dunno what to say honey.
What a night.
We slept at 4!
Better get used to it,your boyfriend is nonturnal!
right right right sis?we are!
=)
Tuition is starting and i got no mood to blog!
Moss away people!
Yesterday was great,
I'm sure you got lots to blog later
Well i'm giving you a topic to whine about!:P
You're working now and i'm heading for tuition.
Let us part in thought for now.
Lets just say,its hard to part but i live to deliver!
Drink more water kay!
I dunno if you can read this but oh well.
Really got to rush out now.
ORAL B<3
Yesterday was great,
I'm sure you got lots to blog later
Well i'm giving you a topic to whine about!:P
You're working now and i'm heading for tuition.
Let us part in thought for now.
Lets just say,its hard to part but i live to deliver!
Drink more water kay!
I dunno if you can read this but oh well.
Really got to rush out now.
ORAL B<3
XOXO
Sad/happy/angry/me?
Sad/happy/angry/me?