Driving record
Saturday, April 19, 2008
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-10:51 AM
FUCK YOU LEONG JUN JIE.
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its amazing how when everyone else is sleeping but i woke up the first even though i slept only at 6.
its 12.23 in the afternoon and i was totally awoken by jia's sis and jia's sis's fren.
apparently they were sitting down looking at me sleep because i slept on the couch.
they woke me up with their giggling and insessant noise.when i was awaken,they just ran into the room.how nice.after 16 years of age still dunno how to behave?its rude to stare.
now i'm awake again with the absolute guilt that i did something really really wrong.
i'm torned.
why in the world did i behaved so childishly?
i know if i were to behave this way to my frens,i will surely get my way but than again,what was i after?a little pride that is left in me?after all pride didnt matter when it comes to you.I can believe i spoiled a perfect little day.
was having a massive with jonny & casey respectively about their life and it started to rain heavily.So i took an umbrella and start heading to grandlink square.The last thing i wanna have is for carrot to fall ill in the rain.Walked back to jia's place after knowing they are okay and my phone got wet in the process.Nice.
luckily they already had an umbrella and poor junjie.Sorry!
sorry for getting whacked because of me.
sorry for getting drenched because of me.
sorry for everything.
Thank you for helping me amend.
caseyyyyy and jiaaaa are superrrrrr angellssssssss~came down to geylang to accompany me after hearing i had a problem!(cep jia because he stays in geylang but still thank you~)
Went to drink at some retarded vietnam place which obviously the liquor there is not enough for me to get high.
started heading back to jia's place complaining to them what an asshole i am.
trying to think of a rational explaination for my atrocious behaviour and only arrive at a conclusion that i was just being a little petty dickhead which ate vinegar.
the sole idea of being in love you is just tooooooooo massive.
being jj,casey was already talking to me about how i should change to adapt to the school's insessant picking and how i just chill and give them no chance to pick on me.
But i told him i really didnt care what the teachers think about me.
the only people that can make me change is my mum,lydia and friends.
i was making my stand very firmly that i live for myself and lydia alone and i need not need to change for anyone that i couldnt care less.
right now i think i dont i can say that ever proudly again.
my six senses is being governed by whatever is this word called "love"
i used to be cool about life and i cant be bothered to care about stuffs.
i always thought i am a very forgiving&big hearted person.
right now i get really really upset with just the mention of hong wee.
just a little tiny winny sound of that makes me boil.
not that he did something wrong,its just the way god made us,i am reduced to a
little dummy head who cant even control my thoughts and feelings properly.
no matter how cool and nonchalent i act,deep down inside i tell myself
:Lydia liao i am really really really in love with you and i'm willing to give up every single thing for you,please tell me you love me like the way i love you?
the reason why i behaved soooo childishly is seriously way beyond my control now.If i can control it,i wont choose to embarrass you the way i did yesterday.
i'm soooooooooooo ashamed of myself.
i feel like the worst boyfriend on earth and maybe i dont even deserve you anymore.
i dunno.
i really dunno.
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jonny and weihoe arrived shortly after that and asked what happened to meeee.
explained to him what happened and he lost for words.
i bet you didnt think that jj would ever do something so childish right?
i didnt even know what i was thinking.
i dont know and i wont ever do that kind of things again.
its just sooo unlike meeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
i think i was possesed or something.
i seriously seriously seriously dunno what the hell i am doing.
what the hell is wrong with me?
my stupid king attitude really cost dearly now.
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--
its amazing how when everyone else is sleeping but i woke up the first even though i slept only at 6.
its 12.23 in the afternoon and i was totally awoken by jia's sis and jia's sis's fren.
apparently they were sitting down looking at me sleep because i slept on the couch.
they woke me up with their giggling and insessant noise.when i was awaken,they just ran into the room.how nice.after 16 years of age still dunno how to behave?its rude to stare.
now i'm awake again with the absolute guilt that i did something really really wrong.
i'm torned.
why in the world did i behaved so childishly?
i know if i were to behave this way to my frens,i will surely get my way but than again,what was i after?a little pride that is left in me?after all pride didnt matter when it comes to you.I can believe i spoiled a perfect little day.
was having a massive with jonny & casey respectively about their life and it started to rain heavily.So i took an umbrella and start heading to grandlink square.The last thing i wanna have is for carrot to fall ill in the rain.Walked back to jia's place after knowing they are okay and my phone got wet in the process.Nice.
luckily they already had an umbrella and poor junjie.Sorry!
sorry for getting whacked because of me.
sorry for getting drenched because of me.
sorry for everything.
Thank you for helping me amend.
caseyyyyy and jiaaaa are superrrrrr angellssssssss~came down to geylang to accompany me after hearing i had a problem!(cep jia because he stays in geylang but still thank you~)
Went to drink at some retarded vietnam place which obviously the liquor there is not enough for me to get high.
started heading back to jia's place complaining to them what an asshole i am.
trying to think of a rational explaination for my atrocious behaviour and only arrive at a conclusion that i was just being a little petty dickhead which ate vinegar.
the sole idea of being in love you is just tooooooooo massive.
being jj,casey was already talking to me about how i should change to adapt to the school's insessant picking and how i just chill and give them no chance to pick on me.
But i told him i really didnt care what the teachers think about me.
the only people that can make me change is my mum,lydia and friends.
i was making my stand very firmly that i live for myself and lydia alone and i need not need to change for anyone that i couldnt care less.
right now i think i dont i can say that ever proudly again.
my six senses is being governed by whatever is this word called "love"
i used to be cool about life and i cant be bothered to care about stuffs.
i always thought i am a very forgiving&big hearted person.
right now i get really really upset with just the mention of hong wee.
just a little tiny winny sound of that makes me boil.
not that he did something wrong,its just the way god made us,i am reduced to a
little dummy head who cant even control my thoughts and feelings properly.
no matter how cool and nonchalent i act,deep down inside i tell myself
:Lydia liao i am really really really in love with you and i'm willing to give up every single thing for you,please tell me you love me like the way i love you?
the reason why i behaved soooo childishly is seriously way beyond my control now.If i can control it,i wont choose to embarrass you the way i did yesterday.
i'm soooooooooooo ashamed of myself.
i feel like the worst boyfriend on earth and maybe i dont even deserve you anymore.
i dunno.
i really dunno.
-0-
jonny and weihoe arrived shortly after that and asked what happened to meeee.
explained to him what happened and he lost for words.
i bet you didnt think that jj would ever do something so childish right?
i didnt even know what i was thinking.
i dont know and i wont ever do that kind of things again.
its just sooo unlike meeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
i think i was possesed or something.
i seriously seriously seriously dunno what the hell i am doing.
what the hell is wrong with me?
my stupid king attitude really cost dearly now.
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thank you lionel and russ.
i got nothing to say cep thank god for friends.
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i'm not afraid to lost you.I'm just afraid that i cannot treat you the way that i want to treat you.
tears rolling and mind freezing.Now i know how you felt the last time,how you felt yesterday.
congrats leong jj first tear just landed on my leg.
PEOPLE I AM NOT SAD I AM JUST FUCKED WITH MYSELF FOR BEING SUCH A DICKHEAD.
all it takes is for one action for the dent that will last me a last time.
i wish i could stab myself a million times over right now.
gifts & wishes.
-a knife which says:die jj.
-a big kiss from my lips to yours.
-a sweet goodnight that is coming from the bottom of my heart.Good night baby.
i'll miss you;even though i'm feeling soooo zomblnised now,i still feel this ache in my heart.
I know i've a real bad boy,i didnt meant for you to get hurt.
so baby,times are getting a little crazy and i have no idea.no idea at all.
i still believe that love will never die and even if i'm reduced to a zomble,
i still dare to say i love you.
I love you.
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right
All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?
& all I know is You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause You know I give you all of me
i'll miss you.i will.
i got nothing to say cep thank god for friends.
--
i'm not afraid to lost you.I'm just afraid that i cannot treat you the way that i want to treat you.
tears rolling and mind freezing.Now i know how you felt the last time,how you felt yesterday.
congrats leong jj first tear just landed on my leg.
PEOPLE I AM NOT SAD I AM JUST FUCKED WITH MYSELF FOR BEING SUCH A DICKHEAD.
all it takes is for one action for the dent that will last me a last time.
i wish i could stab myself a million times over right now.
gifts & wishes.
-a knife which says:die jj.
-a big kiss from my lips to yours.
-a sweet goodnight that is coming from the bottom of my heart.Good night baby.
i'll miss you;even though i'm feeling soooo zomblnised now,i still feel this ache in my heart.
I know i've a real bad boy,i didnt meant for you to get hurt.
so baby,times are getting a little crazy and i have no idea.no idea at all.
i still believe that love will never die and even if i'm reduced to a zomble,
i still dare to say i love you.
I love you.
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right
All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?
& all I know is You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause You know I give you all of me
i'll miss you.i will.
XOXO
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