Driving record
Friday, May 23, 2008
♥
-2:37 AM
Its 2.32 now but i dont feel like sleeping.
I just feel like sitting down in front of my computer typing essays.
I didnt tell anyone about my break-up today because i felt that i'm not exactly sad.
It may be the season where everyone is void of all feelings and i'm not exempted.
I dont feel anything or whatever now.
I just feel that this is a nightmare and i'm waiting for it to end.
I dont dread this feeling,i just dont know how to appreciate it.
Spent the entire time trying to figure out what went wrong or rather what did i do wrong which sums up to this pathetic ending of breaking up.
Its not that we're not suitable for each other or we're not good enough for each other.
Its just that i'm the kind of person who thinks that everything is gonna be okay and just not do anything about it.
Although i refrain very much from running away from the problem and solve it immediately but its just that sometimes things dont just go your way and i didnt exactly perform very nicely today.
I know that lydia is nice,i know that i am so smitten over her.
And its different from all the kind that i had for the past 6 years.
That is why i know that if something that were to happen between us,we only have ourselves to blame.
Love isnt just about being with that special someone.
Love is about giving in to that person even though its hard.
I know losing you is hard.
Knowing that i didnt pamper you enough w/o a chance is even harder.
But right now i just want you to be happy and live life as if that life would be much more happier w/o me.
Because if that is what you want,I'm willing to give it to you.
I once told zad that dont give up this relationship if you know that you still love it.
I love every second with lydia.
I love feeding her after an intricate attempt to pick out the bads of the food.
I love meeting her everyday poning everything that is mundane because i know its all worth it.
I love calling her to whine that soonleng bullys me.
I love making comments that will irritate her because i know that she loves me too.
I love waking up as early as the birds to make a simple lunch box for her.
I love watching movie with her while getting distracted trying to kiss her.
I love listening to the bear over and over again feeling so loved.
I love being yours.
Your and only yours truly.
Somethings got to change but not my love for you.
I need something in my life.
That thing is you.
I'm not a robot without any judgement or whatsoever.
I'm just JJ.
The one that you were once so madly in love with.
And that is not gonna stop just right there because i know this relationship wasn't just granted to me out of nothing.
I know that God gave you to me.
And whatever happens,I'm just gonna keep you close to my heart.
I'll keep you close to my heart.I promise.
Love dont walk away,people do.
But love still dont walk away,so i'll just walk back to it.
I'm not letting myself drown in sorrow.
I know that love is overwhelming me and i know you know it too.
I'm not sad.
I'm just bored of being sad.
Right now,i'm robot cop.
A robot cop void of all feelings,except you.
People walk away but i still remain.
Everyday i take a vow,never to let you disappear.
Disappear from the arms of me.
You may be stubborn but i'm not flexible either.
Love may be tough but i'm keeping it for sure.
I just feel like sitting down in front of my computer typing essays.
I didnt tell anyone about my break-up today because i felt that i'm not exactly sad.
It may be the season where everyone is void of all feelings and i'm not exempted.
I dont feel anything or whatever now.
I just feel that this is a nightmare and i'm waiting for it to end.
I dont dread this feeling,i just dont know how to appreciate it.
Spent the entire time trying to figure out what went wrong or rather what did i do wrong which sums up to this pathetic ending of breaking up.
Its not that we're not suitable for each other or we're not good enough for each other.
Its just that i'm the kind of person who thinks that everything is gonna be okay and just not do anything about it.
Although i refrain very much from running away from the problem and solve it immediately but its just that sometimes things dont just go your way and i didnt exactly perform very nicely today.
I know that lydia is nice,i know that i am so smitten over her.
And its different from all the kind that i had for the past 6 years.
That is why i know that if something that were to happen between us,we only have ourselves to blame.
Love isnt just about being with that special someone.
Love is about giving in to that person even though its hard.
I know losing you is hard.
Knowing that i didnt pamper you enough w/o a chance is even harder.
But right now i just want you to be happy and live life as if that life would be much more happier w/o me.
Because if that is what you want,I'm willing to give it to you.
I once told zad that dont give up this relationship if you know that you still love it.
I love every second with lydia.
I love feeding her after an intricate attempt to pick out the bads of the food.
I love meeting her everyday poning everything that is mundane because i know its all worth it.
I love calling her to whine that soonleng bullys me.
I love making comments that will irritate her because i know that she loves me too.
I love waking up as early as the birds to make a simple lunch box for her.
I love watching movie with her while getting distracted trying to kiss her.
I love listening to the bear over and over again feeling so loved.
I love being yours.
Your and only yours truly.
Somethings got to change but not my love for you.
I need something in my life.
That thing is you.
I'm not a robot without any judgement or whatsoever.
I'm just JJ.
The one that you were once so madly in love with.
And that is not gonna stop just right there because i know this relationship wasn't just granted to me out of nothing.
I know that God gave you to me.
And whatever happens,I'm just gonna keep you close to my heart.
I'll keep you close to my heart.I promise.
Love dont walk away,people do.
But love still dont walk away,so i'll just walk back to it.
I'm not letting myself drown in sorrow.
I know that love is overwhelming me and i know you know it too.
I'm not sad.
I'm just bored of being sad.
Right now,i'm robot cop.
A robot cop void of all feelings,except you.
People walk away but i still remain.
Everyday i take a vow,never to let you disappear.
Disappear from the arms of me.
You may be stubborn but i'm not flexible either.
Love may be tough but i'm keeping it for sure.
XOXO
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Sad/happy/angry/me?