Driving record
Monday, June 23, 2008
♥
-11:30 PM
Scared!
Nope.
I'm scared of losing my dearest baby.
Today is fatigue.Fatigue is today.
Its been a tiring day alright?
Yup it it.
BUT,hundred & one energy was granted to me when i receive baby's text which sets me into a utter desperation to tell her how much i love her!>,<>YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL NOW WHEN I TYPE THIS.
* *O** *O*
decipher the code above to receive a limited edition kiss from me tommrrow=)
Had some plans to clear up all the things on my hand so that i could concentrate better for my studies & do my best not to flare up so easily as promised to baby girl.
So,started off with me cleaning up the glitch that i land myself into.
So far so good.
Everything is going quite smoothly and I really GOD to thank Mr tan for his ever-loving patience and concern for me.
Instead of throwing punishnments & ranting,some preaching was done and i was given a task
to gather all the commments from my teachers on whether i should be given a chance to stay in barker road.
I know i will do well.
And i'm already starting to put in tons and tons of efforts in my studies.Interest is approaching &
Nope.
I'm scared of losing my dearest baby.
Today is fatigue.Fatigue is today.
Its been a tiring day alright?
Yup it it.
BUT,hundred & one energy was granted to me when i receive baby's text which sets me into a utter desperation to tell her how much i love her!>,<>YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL NOW WHEN I TYPE THIS.
* *O** *O*
decipher the code above to receive a limited edition kiss from me tommrrow=)
Had some plans to clear up all the things on my hand so that i could concentrate better for my studies & do my best not to flare up so easily as promised to baby girl.
So,started off with me cleaning up the glitch that i land myself into.
So far so good.
Everything is going quite smoothly and I really GOD to thank Mr tan for his ever-loving patience and concern for me.
Instead of throwing punishnments & ranting,some preaching was done and i was given a task
to gather all the commments from my teachers on whether i should be given a chance to stay in barker road.
I know i will do well.
And i'm already starting to put in tons and tons of efforts in my studies.Interest is approaching &
some serious work is being done here.=)
I'll just work hard and leave everything else in god's hands.
-
BUT!
I'm scared.
Scared of what?
I'm scared of losing lydia.
Yes,i may speak as if i'm tough,but actually i'm weaker than a jelly fish.
-
Was reading a little letter from baby some time ago when we quarrelled.
Guess what?
Its been a few days since it happened and the fear and re-enactment of that scene rush its way back to my head.
There is something that needs to be said and i might as well say it here.
:
Baby,i was never so desperate;so desperate for something.So desperate for us to make it out alright.
A sculpture which represent our future.
You've been everything to me.
You are everything to me.
I don't ever wanna lose you.
I don't want.
Thats the fear that is running through me when i read that little letter and that little letter will always remain on my desk to remind myself of what that had happened that day how much it made me realise the love i have for you.
I promise to be better.
And i will.
Rest assured,you will not regret 6 Feb 2008.=)
Its your birthday,******** and the day we declare you are mine.
I am yours truly.
JJ.
I'll just work hard and leave everything else in god's hands.
-
BUT!
I'm scared.
Scared of what?
I'm scared of losing lydia.
Yes,i may speak as if i'm tough,but actually i'm weaker than a jelly fish.
-
Was reading a little letter from baby some time ago when we quarrelled.
Guess what?
Its been a few days since it happened and the fear and re-enactment of that scene rush its way back to my head.
There is something that needs to be said and i might as well say it here.
:
Baby,i was never so desperate;so desperate for something.So desperate for us to make it out alright.
A sculpture which represent our future.
You've been everything to me.
You are everything to me.
I don't ever wanna lose you.
I don't want.
Thats the fear that is running through me when i read that little letter and that little letter will always remain on my desk to remind myself of what that had happened that day how much it made me realise the love i have for you.
I promise to be better.
And i will.
Rest assured,you will not regret 6 Feb 2008.=)
Its your birthday,******** and the day we declare you are mine.
I am yours truly.
JJ.
XOXO
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♥
-10:50 PM
SMILE BABY.
My mood rating is 99/100
where did the 1 go?
BECAUSE YOU HAVEN CALL ME YET!=)
LALALALALALALA.
MAKE ME A HAPPY MAN.
CALL ME RIGHT NOWWW=)
My mood rating is 99/100
where did the 1 go?
BECAUSE YOU HAVEN CALL ME YET!=)
LALALALALALALA.
MAKE ME A HAPPY MAN.
CALL ME RIGHT NOWWW=)
XOXO
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Thursday, June 12, 2008
♥
-4:21 AM
.
My mood rating now is 0.000000.
I just read almost everything about doomsday and how the world is gonna end eventually.
And i just realised something;
Actually when i first started reading all the related topics about the world ending and crap,First things that came to my mind that all of that is crap and some terrorist is just posting all that to
make dumb people panic.
Naturally,if you are thriving now,you obviously dont want everything to just end right?
Yup.
That is the guideline which they're following when composing this kind of turmoil to people.
The more i read,the more i think that its a scam.
First prediction started with something good to make people believe it will happen.
After that a chain of devastating events which throws people into a state of confusion than something good again.
I can see a pattern;also a flaw which you failed to hide intendedly.
But than again if we think again,dont you realised that we are indeed causing our own death?
Inventions that benefited humans.
Light bulbs.
Electricity.
Nuclear power.
Prominent power.
Yeah.
We get to see things in the night.
We get to burn the midnight oil for the upcoming exams.
But than again,we gain something,we lost something right?
You cant exactly have the best of both worlds.
You cant.
We invented electricity,we operate life with ease.
But the things that we burn in the process of making electricity?
We're actually shortening the earth's life.
Talking about depreciation.
I always take note of things that i buy.
I realised that no matter how good looking or useful a thing is,time will depreciate
its use and value and one day,it will surely spoil.
Than its time to buy a new one right?
But now we're talking about earth right?
Where are we suppose to buy another earth?
In a 7/11 store on mars?
I'm just a lazy cow.
A simple action from me:Leaving my fan on when i leave the house is probably causing
the earth's life span by a hour.
A little cig that i smoke almost every 2 hour is rendering the earth's lifespan by a day.
Yes.
The earth is huge.
But all good things come to an end right?
Nelly furtado even sang a song about it.
Whats left on this earth is just a love that we humans cannot comprehen;we tend to act in that likeness of love.
Thats how much i love lydia.
As much as god love us.
Talking about religions,We live in a free world where you can choose to believe what you wanna
believe.
But how do you know whether what you believe in is true?
"FOLLOW THE CROWD LOR"
Theres no way to prove that what i believe is real.
But i suppose i'm really an asshole.
I like to add excitement into my life.
Thats why i always land myself into trouble.
Really hot soup.
But who cleans up my MESS?
God.
Because of the very fact that you're there,
The constant fact that you love me,
The tiny whiny feeling to feel that i'm not alone.
This is MY reason to believe you are there.
By listening to sermons and testimonials wont make much difference in your faith do you?
You have to experience it for yourself!
Invite him to your life.
Tell him that you wanna experience him yourself instead of just listening.
When glitches happen,forget him.
Forget that you ever invited him.
Because he will reveal his prescence to you himself.
.
God.is.Love.
.
I cannot think of a reasonable answer for my obsessive love for lydia.
Cep that i know that you love me like i love her.
In that way,i know how much you love me too.
Because i'm willing to die for lydia.
Just like how jesus died for me.
My mood rating now is 0.000000.
I just read almost everything about doomsday and how the world is gonna end eventually.
And i just realised something;
Actually when i first started reading all the related topics about the world ending and crap,First things that came to my mind that all of that is crap and some terrorist is just posting all that to
make dumb people panic.
Naturally,if you are thriving now,you obviously dont want everything to just end right?
Yup.
That is the guideline which they're following when composing this kind of turmoil to people.
The more i read,the more i think that its a scam.
First prediction started with something good to make people believe it will happen.
After that a chain of devastating events which throws people into a state of confusion than something good again.
I can see a pattern;also a flaw which you failed to hide intendedly.
But than again if we think again,dont you realised that we are indeed causing our own death?
Inventions that benefited humans.
Light bulbs.
Electricity.
Nuclear power.
Prominent power.
Yeah.
We get to see things in the night.
We get to burn the midnight oil for the upcoming exams.
But than again,we gain something,we lost something right?
You cant exactly have the best of both worlds.
You cant.
We invented electricity,we operate life with ease.
But the things that we burn in the process of making electricity?
We're actually shortening the earth's life.
Talking about depreciation.
I always take note of things that i buy.
I realised that no matter how good looking or useful a thing is,time will depreciate
its use and value and one day,it will surely spoil.
Than its time to buy a new one right?
But now we're talking about earth right?
Where are we suppose to buy another earth?
In a 7/11 store on mars?
I'm just a lazy cow.
A simple action from me:Leaving my fan on when i leave the house is probably causing
the earth's life span by a hour.
A little cig that i smoke almost every 2 hour is rendering the earth's lifespan by a day.
Yes.
The earth is huge.
But all good things come to an end right?
Nelly furtado even sang a song about it.
Whats left on this earth is just a love that we humans cannot comprehen;we tend to act in that likeness of love.
Thats how much i love lydia.
As much as god love us.
Talking about religions,We live in a free world where you can choose to believe what you wanna
believe.
But how do you know whether what you believe in is true?
"FOLLOW THE CROWD LOR"
Theres no way to prove that what i believe is real.
But i suppose i'm really an asshole.
I like to add excitement into my life.
Thats why i always land myself into trouble.
Really hot soup.
But who cleans up my MESS?
God.
Because of the very fact that you're there,
The constant fact that you love me,
The tiny whiny feeling to feel that i'm not alone.
This is MY reason to believe you are there.
By listening to sermons and testimonials wont make much difference in your faith do you?
You have to experience it for yourself!
Invite him to your life.
Tell him that you wanna experience him yourself instead of just listening.
When glitches happen,forget him.
Forget that you ever invited him.
Because he will reveal his prescence to you himself.
.
God.is.Love.
.
I cannot think of a reasonable answer for my obsessive love for lydia.
Cep that i know that you love me like i love her.
In that way,i know how much you love me too.
Because i'm willing to die for lydia.
Just like how jesus died for me.
---
I just have the sudden urge of preaching.
And obviously i'm not the one close to even start.
I'm quite screwed myself aye?
Full of bad habits but somehow,God is telling me to type this.
I dont really care what others will think of me when i post this but beware,
Hes beside me now telling me every single letter to type.
---
After reading the predictions and comments of the people.
I still wont believe that the world is gonna end.
But than again its a good thing for me to stumble upon this kind of stuffs.
First thing that came to my mind when i read those was lydia.
She was the best thing that ever entered my life.
I wont even find this feeling in some other else because i know that shes
different.
Its not the hugs&kisses,gifts and fun.
Its all of that combined plus a whole lot of feeling included in it.
Baby,you've been a gem.
Something which is so hard to acquire.
Something that nothing in this petty world can afford.
But you chose to offer yourself to me.
But rest assured.
I'll take good care of you.
I promise.
First thing that came to my mind was lydia and everything else that i possess.
Friends,family.
From a stubborn ox which refuse to acknowledge god,to someone who wants to bring little zinon to church.
I can see the exact love that a mother has for her child in the light of god's love for us.
Its amazing isnt it?
Camile chew ding dong quitted smoking for little zinon.
She changed from a stubborn free thinker to a christian.
Some things,you have to witness it to believe it.
And thinking that this new life that Sis have given zinon,had to just end in the near future.
I dread to believe it.
Right now,Lydia is all that that is in my mind.
Even if i were to die tommrrow,i'll want to die in your arms.
Dying with the fact that i love you and you do too.
Knowing that i will not be forgetten.
Even if NT2007 is really hitting the earth,I wanna sit next to you hugging you witnessing
its arrival when our impending death is creeping up on us.
Together we will face it and before i let off my last breath,i will need to say something.
Baby,i love you.
XOXO
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Tuesday, June 03, 2008
♥
-3:56 AM
I miss you!
Its 3.56am in the morning and i still cant find the excuse to sleep=)
=) i haven been toning every single night lately because i'll always need to sleep because the next day,i'll need to meet baby=)
NOPE,we didnt break up people=) she just went overseas.
Its the second night since she left and my urge for her is getting worst and worst=(
I always wish that my baby girl would enjoy herself and due to the hectic timetable of hers,
she pretty much deserve this holiday=)
But i cant stop worrying about her clumsiness and the ablilty NOT to NOT fall down every single day.
Did i mention did you look stunning after you recover from a trip pretending as if nothing happened?
You special in everyway baby.
After reading joce's letter to me,i felt the extreme love that joce has for lydia and many things might have happened and i feel that i really wanna do everything within me to give baby a good and peaceful life.
That include not having little squabbles and having her to stop worrying about my studies by really start studying.
=)
I studied 3 chapters for math since yesterday and i'm extremely proud of myself.
For once i didnt just say it.I did it.
Baby,Please entrust me with your life and allow me to take care of you for as long as i live.
I'll be someone that you're never dream of=)
-
Its been a tiring day yo?
My beauty sleep was interupted by multiple phone calls from people and my mummy reminding me that i got tuition=)
So i rush down to tuition after a fast bath and started my full concentration in tuition.
i was determined to learn okay.
i didnt even sit next to liz because i know she'll surely disturb me=)
After tuition,wanted to head down to town because i haven't been in town for ages but i realised i still have some math to study so i went home to study=)
Amazingly eh?
I know I know.
I dont believe myself either.=)
Studied till it was really boring and i turned on my com to play some war3 games=)
DADDY was being a absolute sweetie by buying supper for me and i kept saying thank you which kicks off a conversation between us again=)
My daddy told me actually he loves me alot and that its saddens him that our relationship have elapsed till this.
He told me that everytime when he sees me,he'll wish that i'll call him daddy but i never seem to call him.
Daddy,i'm really sorry for being such a bad child.
And i promised to greet him everytime i see him.
Had some casual talk and back into the room thinking about my hopeless life.
I need to change.
First few things to be done is to start studying and be a more polite person.
In that way,that will be less problems for me in life and i can devote more of my efforts to baby girl instead of spending so much time dealing with problems.
Yup Yup Yup.=)
enough of self reflection,
On a happier tone,Baby sent me such a sweet text that i kept reading and reading it.
After so many events,I realised that we've been through alot alot alot and i think i've changed from a childish boy to what i am now.
Well,at least i feel more sense of urgency in life and i'm desperate to marry baby girl=)
I dont wanna end up regreting things that i ought to do and in the process losing things that mean so much to me.
Thats why when baby is back,i'll treat her even better than before and live life to its fullest=)
I just realised there is a certain mono tone in this entry and i think i know why.
I'M REALLY REALLY TIRED.
BUT I MISS BABY.
SOBS.
I DONT FEEL LIKE TYPING ANYMORE.
CIAO=)
COUNTING DOWN,
4 MORE DAYS TILL I CAN SEE BABY GIRL.
FASTER FASTER!
Its 3.56am in the morning and i still cant find the excuse to sleep=)
=) i haven been toning every single night lately because i'll always need to sleep because the next day,i'll need to meet baby=)
NOPE,we didnt break up people=) she just went overseas.
Its the second night since she left and my urge for her is getting worst and worst=(
I always wish that my baby girl would enjoy herself and due to the hectic timetable of hers,
she pretty much deserve this holiday=)
But i cant stop worrying about her clumsiness and the ablilty NOT to NOT fall down every single day.
Did i mention did you look stunning after you recover from a trip pretending as if nothing happened?
You special in everyway baby.
After reading joce's letter to me,i felt the extreme love that joce has for lydia and many things might have happened and i feel that i really wanna do everything within me to give baby a good and peaceful life.
That include not having little squabbles and having her to stop worrying about my studies by really start studying.
=)
I studied 3 chapters for math since yesterday and i'm extremely proud of myself.
For once i didnt just say it.I did it.
Baby,Please entrust me with your life and allow me to take care of you for as long as i live.
I'll be someone that you're never dream of=)
-
Its been a tiring day yo?
My beauty sleep was interupted by multiple phone calls from people and my mummy reminding me that i got tuition=)
So i rush down to tuition after a fast bath and started my full concentration in tuition.
i was determined to learn okay.
i didnt even sit next to liz because i know she'll surely disturb me=)
After tuition,wanted to head down to town because i haven't been in town for ages but i realised i still have some math to study so i went home to study=)
Amazingly eh?
I know I know.
I dont believe myself either.=)
Studied till it was really boring and i turned on my com to play some war3 games=)
DADDY was being a absolute sweetie by buying supper for me and i kept saying thank you which kicks off a conversation between us again=)
My daddy told me actually he loves me alot and that its saddens him that our relationship have elapsed till this.
He told me that everytime when he sees me,he'll wish that i'll call him daddy but i never seem to call him.
Daddy,i'm really sorry for being such a bad child.
And i promised to greet him everytime i see him.
Had some casual talk and back into the room thinking about my hopeless life.
I need to change.
First few things to be done is to start studying and be a more polite person.
In that way,that will be less problems for me in life and i can devote more of my efforts to baby girl instead of spending so much time dealing with problems.
Yup Yup Yup.=)
enough of self reflection,
On a happier tone,Baby sent me such a sweet text that i kept reading and reading it.
After so many events,I realised that we've been through alot alot alot and i think i've changed from a childish boy to what i am now.
Well,at least i feel more sense of urgency in life and i'm desperate to marry baby girl=)
I dont wanna end up regreting things that i ought to do and in the process losing things that mean so much to me.
Thats why when baby is back,i'll treat her even better than before and live life to its fullest=)
I just realised there is a certain mono tone in this entry and i think i know why.
I'M REALLY REALLY TIRED.
BUT I MISS BABY.
SOBS.
I DONT FEEL LIKE TYPING ANYMORE.
CIAO=)
COUNTING DOWN,
4 MORE DAYS TILL I CAN SEE BABY GIRL.
FASTER FASTER!
XOXO
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