Driving record
Friday, August 15, 2008
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-2:37 AM
With a awful sense of touch,i grabed something which is somehow worth my while
Its 2.38am in the morning and i'm still not asleep.
Prelims are running and school's been a bore.
With the hazard of meeting the teaching entourage,school's been rather mundane preparing
myself for the upcoming whoha O's.
What is so important about all those A's that i'm dying to obtain.
I'm even sacrificing my sleeping time composing a blog post to hone my english.
I wish to be someone sucessful in the near future and with a future spent with lydear.
So coming back to the question,what is so important with those A's?
Personally,i don't by balancing numbers,i can go far in life so what is all this that we're learning?
So that we wont get cheated when we buy a bread from the mart and immediately make a equation so that we will get our correct change and not get cheated?
life isn't as impervious as you think.
no.
Its a cruel world that we're living in and without those A's,choices that are revealed to you are limited and we cannot proceed with what we wanna do w/o those A's.
So does that answer to your question Mr JJ?
Yup.I guess so.
On a lighter tone,Lydear came over to my house today with a lovable shock.
She bought a slippers which is of the exact same design from mine.
I didnt tell her how i felt about it but actually deep down inside,i am seriously quite happy.
Well,we always controversed about how couples look when they wear a couple shirt etc out and
how we would not wear them.
But now its slippers that we're talking about so i guess its pretty much okay!=)
I'm really happy its the same design as me so at now when we're walking down the streets,theres something common about us.
When i stare at you,theres this awesome feeling which spells like L.O.V.E but its somehow more fathom than that.
I was staring at baby dear when a list of emotions started gushing out of me and i started swearing about our love once again.
This feeling had always been there,the feeling of rebirth.
I'm always failing in love with you over and over again and i cant hold myself anymore.
I need you to hold me.
Oh well.
I got A paper tommrrow and i plan to sleep through the whole paper.
but that doesn't mean i dont need to sleep now.
And baby,sorry for not calling you.
I dont wanna disrupt your beauty sleep.=)
You're such a beauty.
Ps:A beauty with a strong command of english.:P
Thats to make you smile baby girl.
NIGHTY NIGHT.
Its 2.38am in the morning and i'm still not asleep.
Prelims are running and school's been a bore.
With the hazard of meeting the teaching entourage,school's been rather mundane preparing
myself for the upcoming whoha O's.
What is so important about all those A's that i'm dying to obtain.
I'm even sacrificing my sleeping time composing a blog post to hone my english.
I wish to be someone sucessful in the near future and with a future spent with lydear.
So coming back to the question,what is so important with those A's?
Personally,i don't by balancing numbers,i can go far in life so what is all this that we're learning?
So that we wont get cheated when we buy a bread from the mart and immediately make a equation so that we will get our correct change and not get cheated?
life isn't as impervious as you think.
no.
Its a cruel world that we're living in and without those A's,choices that are revealed to you are limited and we cannot proceed with what we wanna do w/o those A's.
So does that answer to your question Mr JJ?
Yup.I guess so.
On a lighter tone,Lydear came over to my house today with a lovable shock.
She bought a slippers which is of the exact same design from mine.
I didnt tell her how i felt about it but actually deep down inside,i am seriously quite happy.
Well,we always controversed about how couples look when they wear a couple shirt etc out and
how we would not wear them.
But now its slippers that we're talking about so i guess its pretty much okay!=)
I'm really happy its the same design as me so at now when we're walking down the streets,theres something common about us.
When i stare at you,theres this awesome feeling which spells like L.O.V.E but its somehow more fathom than that.
I was staring at baby dear when a list of emotions started gushing out of me and i started swearing about our love once again.
This feeling had always been there,the feeling of rebirth.
I'm always failing in love with you over and over again and i cant hold myself anymore.
I need you to hold me.
Oh well.
I got A paper tommrrow and i plan to sleep through the whole paper.
but that doesn't mean i dont need to sleep now.
And baby,sorry for not calling you.
I dont wanna disrupt your beauty sleep.=)
You're such a beauty.
Ps:A beauty with a strong command of english.:P
Thats to make you smile baby girl.
NIGHTY NIGHT.
XOXO
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Sad/happy/angry/me?
Sunday, August 10, 2008
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-1:42 AM
I've learned alot from the most recent spate of squabble.
So far throughout our journey,we have never experience something so grave
And by the grace of god,we made it to the top once again holding the trophy.
But constant quarreling wont do us any good right?
Yes.
So i've learned alot from this.
Things that i need to do.
1)treat lydia leong candy pop better.
2)learn to shape myself towards lydia's liking.
3)give in to her every single time.
4)to have my stubborn head chopped off.
All these must do list,is to make sure i enhance my relationship with miss liao.
i'll get in another lengthy post another day as i am really really tired now.
But i'm gonna wait for miss liao's call.
Hope she does calls because i miss her!=(
So far throughout our journey,we have never experience something so grave
And by the grace of god,we made it to the top once again holding the trophy.
But constant quarreling wont do us any good right?
Yes.
So i've learned alot from this.
Things that i need to do.
1)treat lydia leong candy pop better.
2)learn to shape myself towards lydia's liking.
3)give in to her every single time.
4)to have my stubborn head chopped off.
All these must do list,is to make sure i enhance my relationship with miss liao.
i'll get in another lengthy post another day as i am really really tired now.
But i'm gonna wait for miss liao's call.
Hope she does calls because i miss her!=(
CIAOSS><
XOXO
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Sad/happy/angry/me?
Saturday, August 09, 2008
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-2:30 AM
Irony.
This irony,i pretty much remember how i felt when i was still in boy's home.
even though we had each other for barely a week,we had to part our ways by
entering the boy's home but i always knew there was something special about you.
Even though i wont count our love as earth shaking,there was something about you
which keeps me lingering on what that have happened and the deep infatutation i had
for you.
Maybe infatuation on last for a while,but no,From infatuation to love.
I very much miss you while i was inside but the irony was,i was a convict;behind bars.
The feeling in which really tore me from the toughest jj to a introvert me.
I was more than sad.
I really miss you so much.
when i got a chance to call you,just to hear a little of your voice;and when i heard it,I
didnt sleep for that night.
This was how much i miss you.
Here comes the irony,
From the day i came out,knowing that alot of things have changed and we might never be the same again,i told myself to let nature run its course and if you're meant to be mine,you will come.
That thinking was pretty much childish and it made you think i didnt care about you.
I was wrong,sorry.
I really did love you so much and as strong as i may be,i was afraid that the truth might hit me so hard if you told me that you had someone else and i chose to run away from the problem.
But god was kind,he really was.
You came back to me with happiness no other could ever give and i felt like i was in heaven with just the sweet company of you.
People always say,too much of a good thing will be a sick thing.
I beg to differ.
Everyday i spent with you,i just wish that the day will never end and everyday i just hope to meet you more and more.I know you felt the same way too.
With the ever thinking that i must treat you better,gives me the strength to think of new ways
to make you happy with the surprises and gifts to tell you that baby,i love you.I really do.
Things might not always happen the way we want it but we always manage to find a way out and emerge as top like winners holding the trophy of our pledge that we truly love each other.
Things are as it is now,stagnant and unpleasant.
It pretty much set me thinking how i was feeling back then when i was still in boy's home.
I miss you exactly the way i did then, in fact,i miss you more.
I really miss you so much baby and the fact that we were once so deeply in love with each other
;was just destroyed in a glimmer of disupte.
I really hate the feeling.
When i was inside,i miss you.
But i couldnt come out and see you because i was lock up.
Now that i am out,i miss you exactly the way i missed you and yet i'm sitting here 2.44am with my hair wet not doing anything.
This is the irony.
I know what i want.
I wanna live my remaining years on earth with you.
But am i doing anything?No.
why?
I dunno.
When i read your little post about a quote saying "love is a fortress"
i wish to tell you yes it is.
I really wish to show you how much i love you and how much i will endure just to be
with you.
i really wanna text you saying i love you.Nothing else.
But why didnt i?
Baby,i love you.i really do but maybe we're both to young to understand the term "love"
Being in love and loving someone is not about the sex nor feelings.
Loving someone is about how you are willing to give in and seeing flaws as virtues.
Maybe we're both still young to understand that.
Maybe we haven reach a stage where we can both sit back and think of all our childish acts and move on in life.
Peharps you're right,the only constant thing in life is change.
But i am childish.
I want my only constant in life to be you.
But i think its not possible at this point of time.
Twice in a row "zxc" have broke us up.
Its always him.
Maybe you and him are just friends,
maybe i'm just a jealous creature.
I do not have the courage to tell you to not have anything to do with him,i'm just not that kind of person.
But not telling doesn't mean i like it.
But i did tried.
I tried my best not to get jealous whenever there's something up with you and him.
I told myself,she have her rights with her choice of friends and as much as i hate it.
i kept quiet,hoping that you're will find out one day that indeed,theres a choice to made the moment you're commited.
Some things that you'll need to give up in order to gain something.
But i guess this kind of things just dont fit you.
You're the kind who values friendship and you think its futile/stupid to lose a friend
between your relationship.
Let me tell you something.
Sometimes things just wont go your way and when that comes,you got to make a choice.
i'm sorry to make you go through all this.
I know that it hurts you so much when it comes to making a choice that you'll rather run away from it.
I know.
I will not make you go through another one of this thing again.
I'll make this decision for you.
I will cease to exist in your contact list.
Love is about sacrifce and it really hurts me to see you go through this and as much as its hurting me,i am willing to step down and maybe then you can balance your friendship.
It may be hard,but i will make it through.
Don't worry about me.
I'll study hard.
And you're right,i'm not studying for anybody,i'm studying for myself.
And what am i studying for?I don't know.
I lost my purpose in life.
I don't know when i will ever find it again but i know that i will not regret my journey with you.
My one and only girl friend who made me once so happy and yet so sad.
Good bye lydia liao.
You've been great.
Really great.
Maybe i dont deserve you at all.
Yeah,i dont.
This will be the last post for me.
I am tired of blogging.
Dont check this blog anymore because i will not be posting anymore.
I know you're rather busy so remember to have more rest.
I'm sorry i didnt keep my promise of taking care of you forever.
I just feel that maybe you're better off without me.
I really love you.
I do.
9-8-2008.
The day jj lost the most important thing in his life.
Lydia liao.
Tears rolling,heart aching.But someone's got to make a move.
This irony,i pretty much remember how i felt when i was still in boy's home.
even though we had each other for barely a week,we had to part our ways by
entering the boy's home but i always knew there was something special about you.
Even though i wont count our love as earth shaking,there was something about you
which keeps me lingering on what that have happened and the deep infatutation i had
for you.
Maybe infatuation on last for a while,but no,From infatuation to love.
I very much miss you while i was inside but the irony was,i was a convict;behind bars.
The feeling in which really tore me from the toughest jj to a introvert me.
I was more than sad.
I really miss you so much.
when i got a chance to call you,just to hear a little of your voice;and when i heard it,I
didnt sleep for that night.
This was how much i miss you.
Here comes the irony,
From the day i came out,knowing that alot of things have changed and we might never be the same again,i told myself to let nature run its course and if you're meant to be mine,you will come.
That thinking was pretty much childish and it made you think i didnt care about you.
I was wrong,sorry.
I really did love you so much and as strong as i may be,i was afraid that the truth might hit me so hard if you told me that you had someone else and i chose to run away from the problem.
But god was kind,he really was.
You came back to me with happiness no other could ever give and i felt like i was in heaven with just the sweet company of you.
People always say,too much of a good thing will be a sick thing.
I beg to differ.
Everyday i spent with you,i just wish that the day will never end and everyday i just hope to meet you more and more.I know you felt the same way too.
With the ever thinking that i must treat you better,gives me the strength to think of new ways
to make you happy with the surprises and gifts to tell you that baby,i love you.I really do.
Things might not always happen the way we want it but we always manage to find a way out and emerge as top like winners holding the trophy of our pledge that we truly love each other.
Things are as it is now,stagnant and unpleasant.
It pretty much set me thinking how i was feeling back then when i was still in boy's home.
I miss you exactly the way i did then, in fact,i miss you more.
I really miss you so much baby and the fact that we were once so deeply in love with each other
;was just destroyed in a glimmer of disupte.
I really hate the feeling.
When i was inside,i miss you.
But i couldnt come out and see you because i was lock up.
Now that i am out,i miss you exactly the way i missed you and yet i'm sitting here 2.44am with my hair wet not doing anything.
This is the irony.
I know what i want.
I wanna live my remaining years on earth with you.
But am i doing anything?No.
why?
I dunno.
When i read your little post about a quote saying "love is a fortress"
i wish to tell you yes it is.
I really wish to show you how much i love you and how much i will endure just to be
with you.
i really wanna text you saying i love you.Nothing else.
But why didnt i?
Baby,i love you.i really do but maybe we're both to young to understand the term "love"
Being in love and loving someone is not about the sex nor feelings.
Loving someone is about how you are willing to give in and seeing flaws as virtues.
Maybe we're both still young to understand that.
Maybe we haven reach a stage where we can both sit back and think of all our childish acts and move on in life.
Peharps you're right,the only constant thing in life is change.
But i am childish.
I want my only constant in life to be you.
But i think its not possible at this point of time.
Twice in a row "zxc" have broke us up.
Its always him.
Maybe you and him are just friends,
maybe i'm just a jealous creature.
I do not have the courage to tell you to not have anything to do with him,i'm just not that kind of person.
But not telling doesn't mean i like it.
But i did tried.
I tried my best not to get jealous whenever there's something up with you and him.
I told myself,she have her rights with her choice of friends and as much as i hate it.
i kept quiet,hoping that you're will find out one day that indeed,theres a choice to made the moment you're commited.
Some things that you'll need to give up in order to gain something.
But i guess this kind of things just dont fit you.
You're the kind who values friendship and you think its futile/stupid to lose a friend
between your relationship.
Let me tell you something.
Sometimes things just wont go your way and when that comes,you got to make a choice.
i'm sorry to make you go through all this.
I know that it hurts you so much when it comes to making a choice that you'll rather run away from it.
I know.
I will not make you go through another one of this thing again.
I'll make this decision for you.
I will cease to exist in your contact list.
Love is about sacrifce and it really hurts me to see you go through this and as much as its hurting me,i am willing to step down and maybe then you can balance your friendship.
It may be hard,but i will make it through.
Don't worry about me.
I'll study hard.
And you're right,i'm not studying for anybody,i'm studying for myself.
And what am i studying for?I don't know.
I lost my purpose in life.
I don't know when i will ever find it again but i know that i will not regret my journey with you.
My one and only girl friend who made me once so happy and yet so sad.
Good bye lydia liao.
You've been great.
Really great.
Maybe i dont deserve you at all.
Yeah,i dont.
This will be the last post for me.
I am tired of blogging.
Dont check this blog anymore because i will not be posting anymore.
I know you're rather busy so remember to have more rest.
I'm sorry i didnt keep my promise of taking care of you forever.
I just feel that maybe you're better off without me.
I really love you.
I do.
9-8-2008.
The day jj lost the most important thing in his life.
Lydia liao.
Tears rolling,heart aching.But someone's got to make a move.
XOXO
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Sad/happy/angry/me?
♥
-2:01 AM
Dignified attempt.
I am ready to give this up too.This relationship i held so close,peharps more than you.
~
The story ends.
I am ready to give this up too.This relationship i held so close,peharps more than you.
~
The story ends.
XOXO
Sad/happy/angry/me?
Sad/happy/angry/me?
Friday, August 08, 2008
♥
-12:45 PM
Honesty.
For interpersonal relationships,honesty is the most important.
Irregardless of the other person's feelings,honesty is very much expected and must expect
understanding from the other party.
Apparently,nothing has changed.
All the things that you say,all the things than you write just doesn't tally with what you do.
I'm utterly disappointed.
I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE LIE TO ME.
I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT.
As calm as i am,peharps its time.
Peharps you need to think what do you really want.
sometimes things just wont go the way you want it.
For interpersonal relationships,honesty is the most important.
Irregardless of the other person's feelings,honesty is very much expected and must expect
understanding from the other party.
Apparently,nothing has changed.
All the things that you say,all the things than you write just doesn't tally with what you do.
I'm utterly disappointed.
I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE LIE TO ME.
I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT.
As calm as i am,peharps its time.
Peharps you need to think what do you really want.
sometimes things just wont go the way you want it.
XOXO
Sad/happy/angry/me?
Sad/happy/angry/me?